Well…damn, up at 4:54 after getting to bed a little late last night so I feel pretty worn out today…my heel is making real progress but it still throbs as I sit here…no pain but I can feel my heartbeat in it and that is a little weird….didn’t get on the bike yesterday for the second day in a row since the temp never got out of the 20’s and that is just too darn cold…but it is 34 right now so I will be getting out after I run an errand this morning….and I do need to run down to Hastings to take a quick look at a house…running out of time so I need to just buy anything so I can get out of here…there are a couple of others in Hastings, too so I need to dig out the listings and make a plan…didn’t do anything but watch the news and soccer yesterday and enjoy the fact that idiot boy is gone…and Man U won which puts them in first place in the PL and it has been a long time since that has happened…so, all in all, a good day but I need to get stuff done around here….need to get packed up and start looking for apartments in case I can’t find a house…but, right now I need more coffee and to read the news before I get going….more later….

Well…I am just so relieved that trump is finally, finally gone….I wonder if there are going to be other physical effects from today? Have been watching the news since around 9 this morning and I am getting to the end of news for the day…one thing I did do was follow Joe on twitter… and that is something I would never, ever do with idiot boy….just going to let this day soak in a bit and get ready for Man U to play in a little while….so this is going to be the last one for the day…I think….just going to let the peace flow over me and enjoy it for a while….

Well…running late this morning and I just can’t get started….for some reason my eyes are so dry they hurt today and that is weird..but, my heel is feeling better from the start today and I hope that means that it will be pain free later in the day…not big pain but I think I’m going to have to learn how to walk on that foot again since I’m still limping when I don’t need to….I think I’m going to have to put some eye drops in this morning it is so annoying and I wonder why that is…it’s sure not normal…I think I slept okay but I sure don’t feel like it right now…I did get my gas bill yesterday and it is the highest it’s ever been with how cold it’s been…127 bucks and I hope it doesn’t get higher….didn’t get a damn thing done yesterday and today is going to be the same with the inauguration happening at noon and then Man U playing this afternoon….I should clean today but my motivation level is so low right now it’s hard to even pick up my coffee cup but we’ll see how it goes in a few minutes….I wonder if I can take a day off to just enjoy what’s happening? I guess we’ll see since the Wings are on and I don’t want to move right now….more later…

Well…man, I feel like crap this morning and I think it’s from the stress from having to move…I did sleep all the way til 6:37 and had some really weird dreams late that had a gas station, my Fiat, sheep, and gamblers in it that was strange….and it had the same theme of not being able to find my car that I have quite a bit and that’s not pleasant…one good thing is that my heel has finally started to show improvement and I can walk a little better…it still hurts but it’s not the searing pain that kept me from putting any weight on it for weeks….and it’s usually worst in the morning so maybe I can go painless later in the day….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but the bike ride and I’m not sure of riding in the muck is good for me or the bike….have had to wash it down the past two days after the grit got in the idler sprockets on the shifter and started to make lots of noise and screw the shifting up…but I don’t think I’m going to ride today with the high temp of only 27 and that’s too cold for me…and I need to do the grocery run this morning…might go out to Hastings to look at a house but we’ll see….more later…

Well…not sure what is going on but I used to jump out of bed when I heard and smelled the coffee maker working and got on with my day…but lately, I just roll over and try to go back to sleep…and that worked this morning and didn’t get out of bed until 7:25 and that’s why I’m running so late today…I think I slept okay but don’t feel like it right now…just have no energy and still feel like I have a cold and it’s been about a week and I am tired of it…I did get a bike ride in yesterday but it was a short one…I am going to go back out and check the trails this morning with the rain yesterday…I do need to get more miles in since I’m gaining weight like crazy even with not eating much….spent most of the day yesterday trying new searches on zillow trying to find a house and that is really depressing since I didn’t find anything….looks pretty likely that I’m going to have to rent somewhere and that is depressing, too…oh, well…not much to do today….need to keep up packing for the move and get a ride in but that is about it…too depressed to do much else but I’ll get over that….more later…

Well…running about on time for a Sunday this morning…got up at 6 and I’m finally getting myself moving after going out for the paper and having my first cup of coffee…coming back I discovered a package on my front porch that my daughter sent me…a new facemask and a couple of Under Armour hoodies that were too small for her husband but they look like they’ll fit me fine…first new clothes I’ve gotten in the past 3 years or so and they will come in handy in the spring when it warms up some and I go to a lighter thermasuit on the bike….slept okay last night but the string of no dream nights continues and that is a little disappointing…my heel appears to be getting better in small steps since I could put some weight on it when I got up today…still hurts but not nearly as much as it did so there is a little hope that it will continue to heal…I did go out to take a look at the trails yesterday and got about a mile before I decided to turn around and go back to the streets…just too icy and that makes the ride uncomfortable and I don’t want to have to work that hard….but I did get almost 10 miles in so that felt good….the work I did on the car to free up the parking brake worked and it released just fine today…and the front tire has held air since I worked on it Thursday so I guess it was just the valve that was stuck…not much to do today…need to look for houses all day along with watching Man U play at 11:30…don’t need to cook since I have leftovers that need to be used….more later….

Well…with everything happening, or not happening on the house hunt, I’ve found myself sliding into melancholia today with that dead feeling that comes with it…and with it comes the need to listen to melancholy music to try to reset my semi functioning brain…it is in times like this that I’m really glad I live alone….just couldn’t give anything to anyone right now…and this time I reached back to one of my favorite albums and the first one I bought with my own money “Revolver” by the Beatles and the song “For no One”….one of my favorite songs of any Beatles song…a song about a break up where she’s getting over it and he isn’t…2 minutes and 1 second of perfection…back then I didn’t really have a clue what the song was about but I was in band at the time and it has a french horn solo in it that I just loved….I’m not sure what it is about breakup songs that speaks to me but this one and “Wasted Time” by the Eagles about a woman who is getting older and is going through another breakup and can’t believe it’s happening again….saw that one live here in GR and I will admit I shed a tear when I heard it…”you never thought you’d be alone this far down the line…”  maybe it’s that the lyric describes my own life? Normally, I’m not a country fan but I remembered a song by LeAnn Rimes called “Probably wouldn’t be this way” about a woman who lost her husband and is struggling to try to get over it that I have to include in my wallow today…in the song, her friends and family can’t figure out why she can’t move on…but I get it…there are time when you just don’t get over it…an emotional punch stays with you for years even when you know logically that it’s time, but all you hope for is the pain to just fade a little…and like today, there are times you welcome it as an old friend…and a necessary part of your sanity….okay….it’s not that dark…I just needed something different to write about today…and I am melancholy….

Well…hey, made it all the way to 6:23 this morning but I still feel pretty crappy today…slept okay but my head was so plugged up that I couldn’t breathe through my nose at all and that causes it’s own problems that I am still feeling….but that should get better as the day goes on…didn’t get out on the bike yesterday with all of the crap that was going on but I think the trails may be clear after the rain yesterday so I’m going to head out there when it warms up enough…but that won’t be til noon or so and I am going to take an easy morning to get ready for that….they have started running old cartoons on metv on sat mornings and that is kind of cool…when I was a kid that was the thing for getting up on sat…and Popeye is on right now…gives me something to watch until soccer comes on…didn’t get anything done yesterday but I’m going to clean and pack some today…and try to figure out what to cook for the start of next week so I can take it out of the freezer and thaw it…don’t have any room in the freezer so I really don’t need to buy any protein this week…just like last week….more later…

Well…running late for coming back here and it is because I went out to look at another house with my brother…what a frickin dump…99K and the garage was held up by a brick wall or it would have fallen over…when we walked into it, he looked at me and said nope…so we took a quick tour and left…so no house for me today…more looking ahead….I am looking at one that has the weirdest shaped lot…80 feet wide by 500 feet deep and tiny house but only 86k so maybe I’ll take a drive out to look at it tomorrow…supposedly appraised at 102k in December but no basement and a small garage, too….and the deal for it that was posted as pending back in December must have fallen through….so, back to looking tomorrow..still have a week or so to find something and still be able to get out of here…I’m a little depressed…

Well….darn…up at 5:30 and today I knew there was no point to even trying to get back to sleep….but that worked out okay since I needed to put the recycling bin out and forgot to do it last night…slept a little crappy last night with a lot of tossing and turning and I’m feeling it right now…felt like the bug was going away yesterday but it’s back this morning and that is a little disappointing…but it is not worse so I guess that’s something…I may be able to get back to the trails with the rain and snow melt that happened overnight and I’m looking forward to that…riding on the road is okay but it is too easy to just do 6 miles and call it a day…I need more than that and I’ll be really happy if I can get back out there…damn, I wonder when my heel is ever going to heal? Still hurts like crazy today and now my gout appears to be flaring again…or it’s just from walking on the front of the foot for so long…either way I am so damn tired of it and have tried everything to fix it…might have to get some liquid bandage to pull the cracks back together and see if that will help….not much to do today…need to spend the day looking for houses so I can pull the trigger on one now….more later…