Well…I feel much better today and I will try…that is, try to get a couple of these out today…not a lot to do today but get the bike ride in and then over to take care of C’s house..had a really fun lunch with T yesterday and got a bag full of new books to read,,yay…so that will be on the agenda for today…got a copy of the hot new series “The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo” from her and I will update you what I think of it…not much else for now…but I will have more later…

Well…that was a long night out (for me anyway) and I am worn out today…so, this one is going to be short until my brain clears out a little…looking forward to lunch with T today but I think that will be all I’ll do until later….I’m amazed at times at what I can do to myself and still survive it….water really tastes good this morning….more later…

Well…the cliff has seemed to have receded somewhat and that is a good thing, I think…there have been some things that I have noticed for a while that I thought I’d share…some of them may even be amusing…first, why is it that there are so many women running these days? When I’m out on the trail, the runners that I see are mostly women but the bikers are mostly men…I know I stopped running because it hurts like crazy and I was always fighting an injury of some sort ranging from achilles tendon swelling to shin splints…I also know that I love the mechanics of the bike; the shifting, coasting, leaning, and sprinting…and all of that without pain…I know, what does this have to do with anything? Well…nothing, really, just an observation…I thought you might like to read something that has no outrage, that shows that I’m not really that pissed all the time..or maybe you don’t care..that’s okay, too…

Oh….the attack bunnies are out again…I think they are trying to distract me; have me fall off the bike so they can then swarm over me and do who knows what….it almost worked today…they’ve gotten smarter and have started to run 3 or more at a time so I can barely miss them…I almost want to stay home since the danger is so great….see….made you smile for a change…

One last thing…saw two Segways out on the trail today….kind of a weirdness to me but maybe not to you…

Well…out to Ada again yesterday..won the night in pool and feel like crap today..oh, well…I knew that was going to happen so I’ll live with it…not too much to do today and that is probably good…just not too motivated to even do this right now but I know it will get better as the day goes on…more later…

Well…up at 5:30 this morning but no booze last night…don’t feel a whole lot better but I hope that will change as the day goes on. Need to go grocery shopping today since I am getting really tired of chicken all the time..but the fresh veggies form C have been a welcome change. Still not much closer to the cliff today so far but you never know…it will be nice to get the hell out of here for a while today to go out to shoot pool…more later….

Well…it has not been the easiest of days…I did get the car cleaned but it was so much effort to do anything today that I am exhausted…so this will probably be the last post today…doing this usually makes me feel better but it has seemed like work today and any writer will tell you that when that happens, you need to just walk away for a while…at least a couple of hours anyway. It seems like the cliff edge is coming closer again but I’m not sure…it will probably be clearer tomorrow…

Well…it’s later in the day and reason has substituted for pain….so I’m glad I’ve waited this long to come back today, or I would have had to delete any post that I would have written. It’s been a tough couple of days emotionally for me but I don’t want to get into that as yet…I will later, but it gets back to the change thing that I struggle with all the time and how it relates to friendship. I see mine dying all the time and I really don’t know what to do about it…I usually attribute it to the changes that come with differing stages of life; stages that I’ve already gone through but is that it? That’s the problem, I don’t know. I also don’t know if I have the energy or desire to try to construct new ones…just to have them die and end up back here thinking about it again.

I do know one thing…that I have depended on these relationships too much; have given them more value than I should have; even defined myself by them…but that is just me..basically all or nothing when it comes to everything…you get a huge high when it is working but I don’t know if the inevitable low and pain is worth it….more later….

Oh…I would like to claim that first line as my own…but, it is borrowed from the song “Live My Life Again” by Jim Fox…

Well…did go out with G last night but again, it had the feel of an ending…like we were just going through the motions because we’re supposed to not because we want to….hmmm….not much to do today…might go out and hit a bucket of balls for something to do. Or, I was going to clean up the car since it hasn’t been washed in a couple of months….and the windows are starting to get that film on them that I hate…at this point, I don’t really know…more later…

Well…I guess I need to lighten up a little here huh? It’s been a pretty normal day with a few things that I needed to get done and did, so now I’m just sitting here nursing a thigh injury but the weird thing is, I can’t figure out how I got it. I felt fine after the ride this morning, but when I sat down on the couch, it was like fire shooting up the outside of my thigh…kind of like a cramp but it is so unpredictable in when it hurts that it is a new one for me…oh, well…first injury in a while so I guess I shouldn’t bitch, huh? I could tell a joke or something but I don’t know any….hmmmmm…well…I’ll end it here, then…just waiting to hear from G to see if she wants to go out…..

Once there is Red Wings news, I’ll start getting back to the daily postings about my team…I should do some about racing but I’m just so bored with it right now that I can’t even work up any outrage over the team orders by Ferrari yesterday in the F1 race….I wish we could still get the WRC on the dish…those rally drivers have got to be the bravest ones on the planet and the wrecks they have are the coolest…reminds me of the dirt tracking we used to do when I was a kid…and that is a story for another time…later…

Well…I think I’m getting old…just feel tired this morning and the brain is not working too well…it’s not the SF but it may have had a contributing effect…so, this one is going to be short so I can get in the shower and head for coffee….more later….

Didn’t write enough this morning to make this a part two…so I thought I’s add it to this one…not a lot to do today except out with G later this evening and, in a pleasant surprise, having lunch with T again this week either Wed or Fri…that will be fun. Yeah, I know, my writing is not very good today…but it feels the same way in my head..kind of disjointed and sticky…no flow at all…so, I’ll have lunch and come back later to try again…that one will have to be a part two, I guess…