Well…running a little late today with my site being down when I got up but it seems to be okay now…slept okay last night but was up at 5:14 again but I guess it’s not 3:14 so that is a win…still feeling pretty depressed but better than yesterday so this may be short one…at least until the plumber gets here and I find out how much it’s going to cost me…then I’ll probably just lie on the couch the rest of the day and feel bad…but, it has to be fixed and I can’t do it so it’s the only way…the fence didn’t get done yesterday since one of the guys working slashed his thumb with a saw and had to go to the hospital…and it’s raining today so it may not get done this week…but, that’s not depressing since there is progress being made and it looks good so far….I did get some stuff done around here yesterday but today looks like just waiting for the plumber and then maybe some work this afternoon…and maybe a bike ride if the rain will cooperate…I did get out for an errand in the mid afternoon and the traffic was not too bad so maybe getting places will be okay…but everything is on one road and I know the weekends are no go’s so I guess I’ll just do what I did out in the south end….more later…
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Figured part of it out…
Well…after a few days of feeling pretty damn depressed…with some reason, I might add…I think I’ve figured out part of it…I’m just not working hard enough on the house after moving in…was feeling kind of overwhelmed with all of the work that still needs to be done here and taking time off to rest and recharge was supposed to help that…but it worked the opposite….taking time off was a mistake that was making me even more tired and worn out because all I could do was think about everything that needs to be done and that was depressing the hell out of me…so today, kind of by accident, I got started on some of the projects that need to be done and that really did make me feel better…after fixing the utility sink faucets, and making an attempt on the faucets in the tub, I ran out to depot and got some weather stripping to put on the front door and that stopped the air leaks there, then I worked on the back door handle that was loose and got that fixed….then, I hit the attic and fixed the light up there, and started to clean up the debris from the roof job that covered the floor along with sweeping some…but that dust left me coughing and miserable so I am going to have to take something for it here real soon…but, even with that, I feel better now…oh, and I went out and bought a cool aluminum valve remover for the bike to take the one out the one that was plugged up and replaced it with another one so I can now put air in the rear tire again….it was all the way down to 40 psi and making it a little too much work to ride….
This is too damn funny…
Well…even though I’m pretty depressed, there are still small smiles to be had just by watching the news…but not much news, I know that adds to the spiral…just last night, idiot boy trump and his cronies went to game 5 of the World Series to supposedly bask in adulation that he thought would come from some soldiers killing one of the ISIS commanders in Syria….but, I think trump forgot where he was and when his picture was shown on the jumbotron, the entire crowd broke out in boos that were so loud that even an oblivious asshole like trump had to notice….and that was followed by loud chants of “lock him up!” and the look on idiot boy’s face when he realized what was happening is just too damn delicious and has been put on loops on almost every news website on the internet…now, I think the people at that game voiced what many of us in the country feel….and sent a message to the world that we know how ridiculous and criminal trump is and we are trying to do something about him…the wheels of justice move slow but they do move….
More depressing news…
Well….old houses are sometimes a pain in the butt…and this one showed me this morning when the hot water valve in the tub stopped sealing this morning and I can’t figure out how to get it apart to replace the washers…the stem is just frozen into the housing so I had to call a plumber to have them fix it and I’m pretty sure that is going to cost about 300 bucks that I could have used to buy a new grill and lots of other stuff that I need…so, I sit here with water leaking into the tub until tomorrow morning…crap…one good thing is that I figured out how to take the utility sink valves apart this morning and got the cold water side working and got both of them to stop leaking when they are shut off…the screw that holds the washer on the cold side had come out and left the washer jammed in the seat so no water was getting through but that came out easily and I had parts in my toolbox so that was an easy fix…but it is still depressing news that I have to spend 300 bucks….I’m going to have them look at the drain in the bathroom sink, too since it runs really, really slow and makes all kinds of gurgling noises…now, if I can get that fixed along with the valves, 300 bucks is an okay deal…hope it’s the last thing I have to pay people to do…
October 28th
Well…crap….haven’t had a bout of depression for quite a while now but it came back yesterday and continues today and I’m not sure why…everything is going okay with the house and the fence is going to be done in the next couple of days…well…that’s not true…the faucets in the tub are dripping and I can’t figure out how to get them apart and put new washers in them and that is going to mean paying a plumber a couple of hundred bucks to take them apart…and I really think that heating this place is going to be ridiculously expensive even with keeping it 66 in here….and I can’t find a winter car that I want and can afford….and I am just so damn tired….but, I now realize that the fatigue is part of the depression and it has been going on for a couple of weeks now….and I think part of it is the realization that my new situation is pretty temporary and in a few months I have to start the house search for one of my own and then go through the fixing process all over again…and I’m not sure if I have the capability to do that again….just getting damn old and I don’t like it…and I am just so damn tired….more later….
October 27th
Well…slept all the way in til coffee o’clock this morning and I’m not sure why…didn’t do anything different leading up to going to bed last night but I was pretty darn tired after not sleeping for weeks so maybe that was it…I did get a bike ride in yesterday but it was in almost full thermasuit since it was only 44 degrees when I went out…and I laughed a little when I realized I could have been going out dressed a little warmly for a couple of weeks now and been comfortable instead of freezing my butt off…and it looks like today and tomorrow are going to be the last two days in shorts this year…I think the tradition of wearing shorts til Thanksgiving is going away this year since I am living in cool temps inside and that is taking something out of me…I’ve never liked being cold and still don’t so the jeans are coming out early this year…I do have to work on the car today since the parking brake is hanging up again and I need to oil the cable and linkages but I’m not sure what oil to use but I’ll figure that out later after it gets light…I am finally going to take a couple of days off working on the house over the next week or so…just worn out and need to get some recharge time in…but then I’ll get right back into it…I wonder if I’ll get much of my deposit back from the apartment after turning in the keys yesterday…if I do, I am going to treat it like found money and buy a few things that I want…a new grill, a soundbar, and an electric heater for the living room so I can cope with the winter cold…but, after living there for so long, I don’t think I’ll get a penny back…oh, well….more later….
After this ruling, trump should just resign…
Well….yesterday, judge Beryl Howell essentially gutted any defense of trump and his cronies stonewalling when she ruled that the impeachment inquiry is entirely legitimate and subpoenas issued carry the full authority of any impeachment proceeding and essentially said that they get anything they ask for…and that by the Constitution, the House set the rules for impeachment and no one else…so the senate has no say and the WH has no say in how impeachment is run. So, that means the entire Mueller report and all underlying materials that Barr has blocked is going to be in the hands of the impeachment investigators….and she made two additional points as to why they should get the material…one, that trump lied to Mueller, and two, then, and now…the WH and trump have attempted to obstruct the investigation. She makes it clear in her ruling that the House committees have every legal right to all of the information they request, but also that trump’s written responses to Mueller were “inadequate and incomplete” and showed he “wasn’t being truthful”….and he failed to provide written answers on his obstruction and of events during the transition…all of which are going to be part of the impeachment charges. She then slaps Barr down on his refusal to provide the Mueller grand jury evidence and his claims that the law bars disclosure to congress of grand jury information with just three words “DOJ is wrong.” Now, Howell made her ruling so strong for the fact that the WH has obstructed previous investigations, by ordering staff into silence and by lying to congress and Mueller. But, the biggest bombshell in the ruling is that, after trumps lawyers basically said to her that trump is immune from any investigation, even if he shot someone on fifth avenue due to the OLC memo from the Watergate era that said a sitting president couldn’t be indicted while in office….but Howell blasted that contention apart with this statement “this OLC legal conclusion has never been adopted, sanctioned, or in any way approved by a court.” So, hanging trump’s entire defense on this memo is a huge stretch for any court…and when it gets to a court, it will be tossed aside as so much legal “theory” that has never been legislated or codified into law. So, hey trump….you are so, so screwed and you should probably resign and try to get your toady Pence to pardon you…oh, wait, Pence is going down with you for his role in the Ukraine extortion…I wonder if president Pelosi will pardon you? Yeah, I wouldn’t hold your breath….
What are they going to do?
Well….you know, I’m getting sick of the pundits trying to tell us in the fair, sane, reality based world what we have to do to make sure that the 40% of Americans who support trump don’t get left behind when we win in 2020….my question is what are THEY going to do to become part of America again…to renounce the hate that they spew every day…to accept that they have been hoodwinked by trump and a republican party that doesn’t give a damn about them and and stop watching fox news and breathe the air of reality for a change? Why do we on the left have any responsibility to them when all they do is hate us and our policies that would benefit them and us and not the rich? I am tired of the media aiding and abetting this un-American bullshit spewed by this 40%….and I am tired of the fact that no one on the right from the top down to the MAGA shits takes any responsibility for their actions…they voted for the idiot trump and lost their jobs due to his stupid trade policies? It must be a conspiracy from the “deep state”…it can’t be that they elected an ignorant moron who really doesn’t know anything. The schools in red states are failing? It can’t be that they voted for repubs who gutted the state budgets to give tax cuts to the rich…it must be that Obama set this up since he hated red states and the people in them. I think that there needs to be some pain involved for these idiots or they will never learn that their actions have consequences…that their hate and racism is what is making people wash their hands of them, not some conspiracy or another…my only concern is the collateral damage that will be done to people who live in red areas who may be conservative but not racist haters….but don’t they have more responsibility for the state of their states and this country than those of us on the left since they voted for idiot boy? I am no longer willing to see any good in any of them or give them the benefit of the doubt until THEY start to show behavior that is worthy of us working with them…until that time, that 40% can just go to hell….
October 26th
Well…it was an interesting day yesterday with getting a lot done outside and the fence guys starting their work but I didn’t get out on the bike with my right hip giving me some problems…and it was cold and I didn’t want to get my thermasuit out yet…but that will be coming this week with the cold and snow that is forecast…had another crappy night’s sleep last night but I’m trying to not focus on it so that’s why I didn’t talk about it until now….after they get the fence done I think I’ll take a week or so off work…yeah, I know, I said that many times before but this time I’m really going to do it…just feel and look worn out and need to do something to try to recharge…but, not today….have to go over and do the last cleaning at the the apartment and turn the keys in…and that will end that phase of my life but I have already moved on with only a week here….I think I’m going to have to start going out and doing things again so I don’t get locked in to just being a hermit here…might go out and have a couple at the local bar tonight just to take a look at it and be around some people for a change….we’ll see…more later…
I’m tired of politics right now…
Well…I think my brain is getting numb with all of the hypocrisy and criminality of the trump and the repubs ao I just can’t muster up the energy to write about that right now…so, I won’t…so it looks like today you’ll get a triple dose of my life…or any other thoughts I may have…I did get more done on the yard this morning and unearthed the block patio that is in the back yard with my spade and then took the power washer to it and, although it is pretty worn and the blocks are a little crumbly, it still looks pretty good…well, at least better than it did and I moved another ton of dirt out to behind the garage that I am going to have to figure out what to do with. Oh, the fence guys are here! It looks like they will have it finished by the end of the day on Monday and that will make a milestone for the house with all of the big projects done…and I am going to pat myself on the back a little for getting all this done in less than 4 months…but, I am feeling it today…after working this morning and not sleeping last night, I am just beat today and I think this is going to force me to take a few days off after I get the apartment cleaned…it looks like that will be Tuesday if the fence guys are going to be working here Monday…and I still need to find a car for winter…yeah, I am exhausted…