Well…damn, up at 6:06 this morning and it is one of those days where you know there is no point of trying to sleep more…but I am so damn worn out that I really could use more sleep…didn’t get much done yesterday but the rides and I’m not sure what the heck I did all day to completely waste a day…I do need to grill some chicken today or I won’t have any meals…I forgot that I bought some asparagus so I think I’ll put some of that on the grill with the chicken…or maybe I’ll steam it…we’ll see…the 24 hours of LeMans is on today so that will be running in the background all day…and will probably watch some of it…watched the news for a while yesterday for the first time in a year but that won’t happen again til Tuesday…and you know the reason for that….I may be off the bike tomorrow if it rains for the first time in 56 days but I’m not holding my breath….it’s only 54 out there right now so I’ll have to dress for that when I get on the bike in a bit…it’s before 7 so I have time to sit and have more coffee before I do….not much to do today…going to be another day of vegging and cleaning for me…I did get the kitchen sinks cleaned yesterday and I should do the bathroom today but we’ll see….not sure if I’m going to grill the chicken for lunch or dinner…not sure of anything right now but that I need more coffee…more later…

Well…woke up at 5:43 this morning and realized that I hadn’t set up the coffee maker…doing that before 6 is a lot of work…but I was able to climb back in bed and sleep until 6:40 so I’ll consider that a win…still have pain in my ribs on my right side in back that I’ve had for a few days now and I can’t figure out how I hurt it…oh, well…it’s only 48 out here fight now so the bike rides will wait a while but this looks like the last really cold night for a while….it is such a luxury to be able to crawl back into my warm bed and not have to do anything I don’t want to do….but I guess I worked my whole life to get to this point and none of it was given to me….got a few things done yesterday and it is nice to have a clean car and bike and I even lubed the bike while I was grilling the chicken yesterday….but I don’t have to cook today…I do have to plan what to get out of the freezer for the weekend and I think it will be some of the baby back ribs and part of the 11 pounds of chicken I got Wed….the grill is going to get a work out over the next few days and it is so cool to have one again…and it didn’t flare even with doing chicken thighs yesterday and I’ve never had a grill that would do that…not much to do today…I do have to get cleaning today or maybe that will wait till it rains…yeah, that made me laugh…over 50 days with no rain out here and I don’t think it’s ever going to rain again….more later…

Well…how the heck is it 48 degrees in June? That means I’m going to have to wait to ride for a while because I’m not going to put the full thermasuit on…talked to my oldest brother for over an hour last night…he was checking in on me about the prostate cancer and we just talked about lots of things…that was cool….now the temp has gone down to 47 on my little weather widget and it has added “air poor”…just checked on the air quality from the Canadian fires and it says to stay inside and not do anything strenuous outside today…ha, ha…yeah, like that is going to happen…i can still smell the fires out here and that can’t be good…didn’t get a lot done but grill yesterday and today looks a lot the same….need to continue to clean and I need to make potato salad since I did the ingredients yesterday and then I’ll have a side for the next few days…thawing some chicken thighs to cook on the grill and I’m going to look for a rub for them…might even have some in the spice cabinet to use so I won’t have to make any….not much to do today…woke up at 6:13 and thought I slept in but got out of bed at 6:36….even with staying up til 11 last night…oh, well…more later…

Well…damn, it got down into the 40’s last night and it’s still only 50 right now so it is going to be cold putting the top down for the grocery run this morning…I have a phone consult with my urologist to do today at 9:15 so I need to get the grocery run done before then…and I need to hit DD to get 10 pounds of chicken for 10 bucks and some roasted chicken at 3 pounds for 5 bucks so I’ll have some chicken to grill over the next few days…and I need to make another batch of potato salad to use the eggs I have left…think I need to eat more after 3 days of one meal…it was cool to see that I’ve gotten down into the 160’s after being weighed yesterday so that means I only have about 5 more pounds to lose….maintenance of that weight is going to be new so I have to figure out how to do that….the damn smoke from the Michigan and Canadian wildfires is here and it feel like I’m living in a campfire with my eyes and sinuses feeling it….you could even see the smoke hazing the view out at the beach yesterday…not much to do today…after getting the surgery scheduled yesterday, I need to take a day off to just think a bit today…need to get going by 8 today so that gives me an hour to sit and have coffee….more later…

Well…after the meeting with the radiologist this morning and finding out that the radiation treatments go on for almost 4 months, I decided to do the surgery instead…and got the ball rolling by talking to my surgeon’s scheduler to get the surgery scheduled…and it will be October 24 at 7:30 in the morning…going down the night before and staying in a hotel with my daughter and then a 10 minute drive to the hospital….and the scheduler is going to set up all the rest of the follow up appointments and the rehab…so, finally, some movement…going to donate my prostate to medical research for an ongoing study U of M has….so maybe that will help someone else that gets this crap….if I waited any longer, I’d have to have another biopsy and MRI…and I never want another biopsy

Well…up at 5:53 this morning and I’m feeling pretty worn out after all the work yesterday but it’s going to be an easier one today…just have the radiation oncology meeting at 9:30 and then have the rest of the day off…need to figure out what to eat today but nothing grabs me…need to get on the bike for the first ride by 7:30 and then do the second one when I get back…it is nice to get the cancer treatment moving and know that something’s happening instead of just waiting…and I’ve been waiting since last October…it got down into the 50’s last night but still no rain…and the low is going to be 50 tonight so I’ll have to remember to close this place up tonight…it’s cold in here right now and I think that woke me up this morning…I like it hot but the cool is a little refreshing…I now have a “beach hazards” warning on my lower banner and the wind is supposed to pick up later today so there will be high waves…think I may go to the beach for a swim Thursday and try to get back into my routine after all of the doctor stuff this week…not much to do today…just going to do the appointment and then try to clean a bit….health stuff is a lot of work…more later…

Well…got the first of the three doctors appointments done and I am happy with this surgeon…it’s all he does is prostate cancer work and he removes it through 4 small holes using a medical robot…3 hour surgery and one night in the hospital…the only thing is that it has to happen the week after we get back or I have to have another biopsy and MRI and have to pay for it and after the 5 grand for the surgery, I don’t want to spend any more money….my daughter is driving in from Maryland to keep her schedule flexible and stay later or go home earlier depending on how I’m feeling…and she is going to load the car up with household stuff from the summer home that I can use…good to get the process started…

Well…damn…it felt like I slept in this morning but what I thought was 8 o’clock was really 6:13…and I was cold with leaving the bedroom window open and no covers on….it got down into the 50’s last night and the heat is going to break a bit so that will be welcome…today is the video conference with the surgeon and I wonder why they have to make it so frickin complex and not just do a phone call…this is really stressful for me and people living in the modern world don’t understand it…they just assume that everyone has new computers, smartphones, and tablets that work seamlessly and I won’t be able to relax today until it’s over…at least the channels are back on emby so I don’t have to spend two hours getting them back again today….I think not eating enough has become a downward spiral for me…just don’t care about it anymore with not being able to taste anything…if this keeps up, I could get down into the 150’s by July and I know that’s not healthy…I am going to get two rides in this morning but I need more coffee first…need to clean up the couch to make for a neat backdrop for the video call today and I need to drag the tripod up from downstairs to hold the tablet…this whole process of being sick is so damn tiring….more later…

Well…I just realized that it looks like the garden is going to survive and I even have some surviving tomato plants…and I noticed that the potato parts I planted have come up and are about 8 inches tall…pretty cool….and the broccoli has shot up about 4 inches this week in the heat….along with the radishes…I wonder if you can freeze radishes? Even the pepper plants are rallying and look like they are going to grow….the beans already have flowers on a couple of them but the plants are pretty small so the beans probably will be, too….just remembered to go out and feed everything before I watered for the last time today….so there is hope I’ll get something from the garden even with the crappy start…can’t wait to see what I get….I think I even have lettuce up that is cool…

Well…up a little before 6 this morning and have just spent almost 2 hours getting my emby guide re populated so I can use it today…and that made me too late to get a bike ride in before the F1 race at 9…I am just so damn worn out today and I’m not looking forward to all of the damn medical crap this week…might even take the day off the bike today but you know I won’t….there is a red flag warning for wildfires today with no rain, wind, and high temps for today….it looks like we are going to go another 10 days with no rain out here and that will get up to 50 days without any and I don’t think I’ve ever seen that in my long life….we’re into June without any storms at all? That is pretty darn strange….didn’t get much done yesterday and today looks the same with very little motivation going on with me…I know that half a pork chop, two spoonfuls of potato salad, and some asparagus is not enough to support two rides but without being able to taste anything, I just don’t care about eating anymore….not much to do today….just going to sit here for a while and have more coffee as I try to figure out what the day is going to look like….more later…