Well…damn, that was a brutal ride…I did get two in outside today but even with little wind, they were just brutal for some reason…and I think it may be that I only had one meal yesterday and that is not enough to support doing 30 miles on the bike and I didn’t even get to lunch until almost 2pm so I think that will set me up to only have one meal again today…or I can have a bowl of soup later since I do need to use the turkey soup leftovers up before they spoil….and I did get chicken legs quarters for 59 cents a pound today and now I have 10 pounds of those that need to be frozen but I think I have room for them but it will be a tight squeeze to fit the leftover ham in to save up for making ham soup in a couple of weeks…have already heated my back once as I wait for the dryer to finish up with the bedding and couch blankets in it….haven’t even read the news today…darn, I better get going…

Well…damn, running late this morning with getting up at 5:40 and then lying back down until almost 7:30 and than never happens…but I don’t feel like I slept at all and it’s going to be hard to get going today…need to be in the shower in 20 minutes to get out for the grocery run and I don’t want to do it…it’s only 29 out there right now and that is too damn cold to ride outdoors so that may have to wait til the afternoon…the weather says it’s foggy out there right now but it’s not light enough to see that yet….looks like it could be ice fog since it’s pretty cold out there….didn’t get much done yesterday but make the big dinner for lunch but I do need to do some laundry today…there are no soccer matches on today so I won’t have any excuse for not working…but do I need one? To not feel guilty, yes…darn, haven’t even read the news yet this morning and it looks like I won’t get to it til the afternoon so there won’t be any topics until then…I know there has been a lot happening so it should be pretty easy to find one for today….okay, need to get more coffee in me before I can even think about getting going…so I think I will…more later…

Well…after getting out for two hard rides outdoors today, and my back not hurting much with heating it as soon as I got off the bike, I thought I got away with it…but nope, my back just froze up completely after sitting on the couch for a few minutes…and now my abs are getting back in the party, too…crap…I guess I could take something for it since I didn’t take anything yesterday….I did cook the big ham I got yesterday and I’m a little confused…it really doesn’t taste like anything…maybe a little bit like ham but not HAM! Like it should….I’ve seen this before with cheaper hams and it is a little disappointing since I’ve been looking forward to this for a month now…oh, well…life is full of disappointment…and it was only 8 bucks so no big loss…thinking about getting some shrimp tomorrow at Meijers since they have pound packages buy one get one free but that still makes it 5 bucks a pound and I wonder if it’s worth it or not?  I guess I’ll have to think about that one….

Well…how much does ending uncertainty cost? In my case it’s 3 grand or so and it appears to be worth it…didn’t sleep well at all last night with getting up twice and then out of bed before 7 and I have a headache…didn’t take anything for the allergies last night and I’m paying for it right now…I had a laugh this morning when the old saying “wake up and smell the coffee” actually happened when I did…yeah, I have a weird sense of humor…it is nice that I don’t have any more doctor or dentist appointments for a couple of months and I am going to enjoy that…at least for the next week or so…I did start getting into Yellowstone over the last few days and the thought hit me it’s the Sopranos set in Montana….and I watched the Guardians of the Galaxy christmas special last night and it was such good natured fun that it made me smile….I have weird taste in shows at times…I am going to make a big ham today that I got for 8 bucks yesterday at Meijers and that should last me for almost a week…and I am going to try to get outside on the bike today for two rides since the wind is down to only about 6mph but it is still too cold to go out til around 9….but it will still be in the 30’s so I’ll need full thermasuit but I will be able to watch Route 66 and have more coffee before that….not much to do today…just going to cook the ham later and then watch some soccer…I really should clean but I’m not sure if I will…I should do bedding today and probably will but that won’t be til this afternoon….just want to sit here for a bit and have more coffee….probably should heat my back as I sit to prep for the rides…more later…

Well…just got back from the periodontist and I like this guy but it is going to cost over 3 grand…the good news is that he thinks he can save the rest of my teeth…made a comment that younger doctors would just pull all the teeth but he doesn’t work that way…older man…probably close to my age and I like the idea that he has been doing this since the 70’s…so the work starts the end of Feb….I’m going to have a cocktail tonight to celebrate…

Well…that was not what I needed…needed a good night’s sleep and didn’t get it and haven’t gotten it for weeks now…I am so damn worn out even with taking the day off yesterday that all I want to do is go back to bed but what’s the point? Didn’t sleep last night and won’t sleep now so I guess I’ll just suck it up and get at it…had an okay day yesterday and vegged the whole day but that just made me feel guilty…so I am going to get back at it today with a ride here in a few minutes…have thought about trying to ride outdoors today but the wind is blowing 15 out of the west and that would make the outbound trip pretty brutal…and I have another dentist appointment today that I am kind of dreading but it has to be done….and I’m going to stop at Meijers on the way home and pick up a ham for 89cents a pound so I can have it tomorrow and for the next couple of weeks….not sure when the last time was I had a ham but I think it was last year….going to make the mashed potatoes and gravy like I normally do and coat it with the maple syrup glaze that comes with it….not much to do today…just going to ease back into the normal routine and get on the bike here in a minute and then watch soccer at 10…already have the heating pad on my back…again… since it hurts already and I need to get out ahead of the pain that will come from riding….I guess I can veg out here for an hour or so before the bike and get much more coffee in me with the hope it will jump start my old body….more later…

Well…running about on time for a Sunday and I’ve been out to get the paper in the cold and I don’t like that at all….but there is no snow on the ground so I’ll take that any day…I think I slept okay but was out of bed by 6 and I wonder if I’ll ever sleep in again…and I wonder if I’ll take the day off the bike like I should….I do need the miles that riding would give me but would 8 more make any difference? Not sure about that and don’t even want to think about that right now….I need the coffee to work and right now…had an okay if wasted day yesterday and today is going to be the same if I don’t get off my butt soon…but I don’t want to…just want to sit here and have coffee, watch tv, and read the news….and that’s what I’m going to do for at least a little while….I did get the Meijers ad for this week and it has spiral sliced ham for 89 cents a pound so I’m getting one of those Wed and that will last me for a week or so until I get another one…and aldis has chicken leg quarters for 59 cents a pound so I’ll be loaded up on protein until the end of the year…I think that will be the first ham I’ve had since last year with the prices so high for pork….not much to do today….just going to ease into the day with more coffee and heading out to Mastodon for some news…I’m really starting to like that new program and it is going to allow me to quit twitter since the asshole bought it….more later…

Well…running a bit late today with not getting out of bed til a little after 7 but my sleep was fitful and I tossed and turned all night….so I’m feeling it right now and having a hard time getting going…but do I need to get going? Yeah, I do but it won’t be outside today with the temp crashing and winds that I can hear over the tv….had an okay day yesterday and got 4 pairs of “lounge pants” for just sitting around here from my daughter and I really do feel like she is trying to make me stylish…and I do feel a little stylish and they are comfortable brushed flannel and now I can change them out more than once a week…it’s going to be a big sports day today with the US playing the Netherlands in the world cup at 10am and then Michigan playing for the Big Ten championship at 8 tonight so I need to get the bike ride in before that….I was waiting for the Meijers ad to see if I was going to be able to get a cheap ham this year and they have spiral sliced ones for 89 cents a pound so I’ll get one this week and then another one next week…and aldis has chicken leg quarters for 59 cents a pound for a 10 pound bag so I’ll fill the freezer this week…but I need to use some stuff out of it first…starting with another container of turkey soup that I started to thaw yesterday….damn, it’s pushing 8 and I’m only on my first cup of coffee and need to get on the bike by 8:30 so I can be ready for the match at 10….not much to do today….haven’t been accomplishing much lately and today looks the same and it shouldn’t be…have been a lazy slug lately but I don’t see that changing today…and my guilt has been short circuited lately…and I’m not sure how I feel about that…it’s been a driver of getting things done and without it life won’t be the same…but I guess I’ll live through it….more later…

Well…with how I was feeling so unmotivated this morning, I am really surprised that I got started at all today…and I figured out it’s not riding in the wind that is hurting my back since it hurts like crazy right now…but I did ride the indoor bike today so maybe it’s just bike riding in general? I wasn’t even going to do that after running an errand early this morning my plan was to just say the heck with it and not ride today…but then I made lunch and felt better so I hauled my butt downstairs and got a good hard ride in…but I still need to start on the two a days if I’m going to have any chance at getting to 6K miles…only have about 240 more to go and I may even be able to do a couple of rides outdoors this week before it gets really cold and drives me back inside….but right now I’m going to watch some soccer and take it easy for a bit…

Well…that was a bit more of normal with getting up at 6:03 instead of 7:30 like yesterday…but I feel pretty lousy today and worn out and that’s getting to be normal…you know, I’m bored with talking about that crap…so let’s talk about something else…it looks like we are going to get some pretty wild weather the next couple of days with another gale warning on right now and I was really looking forward to riding outside today but I can hear the wind so it will be inside today….I am edging up to taking a day off the bike but I think I’ll try to wait til the normal Sunday off….didn’t get anything done yesterday but sign up for Mastodon but I do need to run an errand today but I’m sure not motivated to do that…not really motivated to do anything right now and even doing this is a lot of work….I have a whole day that I can use however I choose but even choosing seems like a lot of work…as I said the other day…depression is on the horizon and getting closer all the time…crap….not much to do today…I have to get on the bike in the next hour or so and I do need to pick up some trash that blew into the yard and I am contemplating picking up some leaves that have collected in the corner of the fence but that seems like a lot of work right now…more later….