Well…I’m sure I’m still tired from the constant pain but I need to get off my ass and get some stuff done around here…didn’t even do the weight work today but I guess I can still do it right now…I did get three rides in today and that is the goal for tomorrow…maybe 30 miles on the bike is enough to do for the day? No, not when I have the yard to get started on and need to get the buckets filled to start my tomatoes, peppers, and cukes…an I probably should put grass seed in the old garden spot since I won’t use that anymore after the debacle of not getting anything out of it but peas last year…not one damn edible tomato or pepper…oh, well…I’ll probably get on that tomorrow…and I’ll need more potting soil to do the 6 buckets I want to fill…okay, probably should get on the weights…

Well…damn, up at 4:30 this morning and the damn pain in my mouth woke me up and got me started on ibuprofen and that is damn depressing…I really thought I was getting better last night but I was wrong…have been in pain for 11 days now and it is just so wearing…I don’t think I’ve ever taken so long to heal after some damage and I am quickly losing faith that I’m ever going to be pain free again…and I still don’t have any energy but need to get on the bike now to be able to get three rides in before noon…it’s only 27 degrees outside right now so the outdoor ride won’t be happening until 10 or so…and just saying that it’s 27 degrees on April 13th adds to the depression I’m feeling…didn’t get anything done yesterday but need to do something today to get me off my ass and start getting the yard cleaned up from the winter…or some cleaning in here but I sure don’t want to do anything right now….F1 qualifying is on around noon so that sets the time I need to be done for the day so I should get off my ass and get going….more later…

Well…still have the damn mouth pain but it’s different now…it used to have a big jaw component to it and I could barely open my mouth but that is better…still have to take ibuprofen for my right side but the left has been better today so I’ll keep my fingers crossed that the slow improvement will continue…I did get three rides in today with two indoors and one outdoors and Stupid the turkey was back out in the street stopping cars and that made me laugh out loud…it was still cold when I went out at 42 but I did get all the rides done by noon and have a little time to get some reading done and I’m going right back to that right now…allergies are just nuts and I feel like I’ve been on a three week bender…no energy…okay, I know the question you are going to ask…if I don’t have any energy, how the hell did I ride 30 miles today? Yeah, I didn’t say it wasn’t hard and I still feel worn out from the allergies and they are just going to get worse and I’m not looking forward to that….okay, reading time…

Well…I thought the pain was getting over last night but I was wrong…back to the ibuprofen again this morning and I really have never felt this kind of pain before…I wonder what kind of damage has been done to me to have it last for 9 days now? Whatever it is, it is wearing me out and I do feel my age from it….need to get on the bike in 13 minutes to get started by 7am and have two rides in by 9 or so….still can’t eat much and I can feel that I’m losing weight and that used to be a good thing but my energy levels are so low that it’s too much work just to sit here…I am so tired of my body giving up on me and it’s not going to get better and that is really depressing…oh, well…I did sleep okay last night but how I feel right now, it doesn’t matter…and dragging my butt downstairs is going to brutal…I probably should just stop doing these since there is no good to report…and no one wants to hear all this whining…so, I’ll try to do better…more later…

Well…not sure what the heck is going on but I feel worse today than I have since I got the teeth out…mouth hurts, tongue hurts, and I have no energy at all…I did get two rides in this morning before I ran errands but that seems like a long time ago…crap, I don’t even have enough energy to read so I’ve been just sitting here watching tv today…there is something seriously wrong and I wonder if I’ve gotten an infection from the teeth removals? I very seldom feel my age but today I feel older than that….okay, I’ll stop whining now…wasn’t up to getting on the outdoor bike today as it barely got over 40 and I am done with the cold…the whole thing is probably caused by the fact that it hurts so damn much to eat and I’ve been taking ibuprofen every 5 hours or so just to be able to tolerate the pain…and I’ve got the BAH in the fridge that I can’t even taste anymore…okay, I guess I wasn’t done whining…I will get out on the bike tomorrow since it’s going to be over 50 but not til the afternoon…so two rides in and one out tomorrow and I sure hope I feel better…can’t feel worse…

Well…damn, my mouth just frickin hurts again today and it’s been more than a week since the work and I really am worn out from it…sitting here in pain is getting overwhelming and I’m not sure what to do about it…have already taken some ibuprofen and now I wait for it to work…I think I’ve lost 5 or 6 pounds from the pain of eating and that is going to continue until it stops…oh, well….need to get on the bike in 20 minutes or so and I’m running late already…should have gotten on the bike by 7 but just couldn’t do it without coffee…want to get two rides in before I head out to run errands this morning…it’s damn April and it’s still not going to be over 50 today…and that is just depressing…when are we going to have spring? Never, I guess….had to call on the assholes to the south of me after they were thumping the neighborhood yesterday and I am so damn tired of that…I’m tired of just about everything…my damn body is giving up on me and it’s not going to get better and that sucks…need to get moving right now so I’ll end here…more later…

Well…damn, it been a week since I had the dental work and jaw still hurts like crazy but I’m lucky that 200 mg of ibuprofen cuts it…I did make a BAH today on the grill so I won’t have to cook for a week or so and that will give me time to work on the yard a bit and get back to the library since I finished off the last of four books today…and I just filled out my absentee ballot for the May millage election and will pay my water bill when I drop it at the drop box…then two blocks to the library…not sure when I’ll get back outdoors on the bike but it will be warm enough tomorrow if the rain ends soon enough…okay, the laptop just told me it needs to restart so I think I’ll let it right now…

Well…damn, still have pain in my mouth from the dental work that was done a week ago and it is taking a lot out of me…feel so damn worn out that all I want to do is melt into the couch…but I’ll get on the bike here here in 25 minutes to get the day started…and I have to hit Menards along with three grocery stores and I’m not sure I’m up to it…hope the bike does it’s magic and gets me out of this funk…20 minutes to go….pouring coffee down and I’m not sure if it’s going to be enough today…didn’t get anything done yesterday but bake bread but today is going to be a busy one with needing to make a big ham, mashed potatoes, and gravy…I’m going to be exhausted by noon today…hell, I’m already exhausted and I think I’ll have to shift into go slow mode to survive it….going to get my flower and veggie seeds today at 10 cents a pack at Menards and will probably start to plant them as it warms up outside in a few days…want to get some perennials so I don’t have to plant every year but I’ll take annuals if I can’t get them….not much to do today…yeah, that’s not true…have way too much to do today and I’m not sure how I’m going to do it…just suck it up I guess….more later…

Well…have the two rides in and the sourdough in the oven finishing and I think that’s going to be all I do today other than read…oh, I do have to do the grocery list but that should take about 5 minutes so that’s not too much of a job…should clean the bathroom and kitchen some and I probably will after I make lunch and the oven cools down…still having to take ibuprofen for the pain but I think it’s slowly getting better…the bread looks really good and I have it figured out, a skill I never had before and that’s pretty cool…I do still have the weight work to do later but reading is going to come first…okay, the bread has 3 minutes left until it’s done so I need to give it some attention….more later…

Well…damn, my jaw still hurts like crazy and it’s been a week since I had the dental work done and I need to figure out how to stop grinding my teeth to stop it…don’t feel as lousy as I did yesterday but I still feel pretty crappy but I’ve only been out of bed for a half hour and haven’t had any coffee yet so that could be why…it looks like a repeat day today with temps still in the 30′s so I’ll do two indoor rides and bake bread this afternoon…even had to make some pour over coffee since this is a coffee leftover day and I barely had two cups to have and that is not nearly enough…need to put the grocery list together but I really don’t have a lot of stuff to get other than the BAH that will feed me for a good week…I think I’ve got enough gas to heat it on the grill but I’ll have to get a refill next week…starting to be able to chew more normally as the pain subsides from the sockets and I really hope the new normal allows me to eat better…damn, it’s already 7am and I need to get going but I wonder why? I could wait til 8 to get on the bike and I’d still be done by 10 so I think I’ll have at least one more cup of coffee and sit here for at least a half hour….more later…