Well…damn, it’s dark in here….it’s almost 10 and I still need to have the lamp on here in the living room…and yes, I only have one lamp…after all, it’s all I need…I’m not sure how I’m going to deal with not being able to get on the bike today…it’s starting to get a little old with the lockdown still going on for a few more weeks and I didn’t realize how much the bike rides every day were keeping me from being so bored that time seems to stop…I did get some chicken in a marinade that I am going to make for lunch and read a bunch of news but what am I going to do for the rest of the day? Man, I used to be much better at doing nothing than I am now and I wonder why that would be? I really don’t have a lot left to do on the house…on the inside anyway….and I’m not sure why I haven’t finished that…could it be the depression coming back? I think I may be getting a little concerned that I’m going to have to move back into an apartment with the housing market frozen and just a little more than 7 months til I have to be out of here….Okay…need to prep the carrots and potatoes that I am going to make for lunch and I need to stop thinking….but that is going to be hard….more later…maybe…

Well…yeah….running late this morning with all of my motivation gone for some reason…didn’t even get out of bed until after 6 and then just laid here on the couch until 7:28….just feel worn out this morning and I wonder if it’s all the work I did yesterday….got the tomatoes in but I think I got the timing wrong and they were too big…they didn’t take to the transplanting too well and I think I’m going to lose most of them…but, I have more started from seeds downstairs to replace them…and I’ll get those in next week after they get a little bigger…the peppers seem to be doing okay in the overflow garden and I have beans and cukes that need to go out next week, too…so I may be able to salvage the garden….it looks like I may have to wait to get out on the bike with the rain that is stacked up all the way back through Illinois and I think that may be a good thing….have had a lot of days of doubles lately and a day off with nothing to do might be just what I need to rest and recover…not sure how I’m going to deal with it but I’ll give it a try….not much to do today….can’t think right now but I do know I need to marinate some chicken to cook for lunch but I’m not sure what I’m going to make with it…might make a pouch with carrots and potatoes but  right now all I want to do is finish this and drink more coffee….more later…

Well…that was a weird night that didn’t fit any of the normal patterns…tossed and turned a bunch, so much that the mattress was displaced almost 6 inches from even and the sheets and comforter were twisted into knots…strange….don’t feel too bad this morning though, so I guess I’ll take it…and that was three days without any allergy meds but I am pretty plugged up so I may take some later today…the stimulus cash showed up in my checking account this morning and I’m not sure if I am going to spend any of it…I would like a gas grill  but the cheapest 3 burner is almost 150 bucks with having to buy a tank with it so I may need to think about that for a while…and I can’t think of anything else that I need since I already bought the tires for the car…it is a nice luxury that I can afford something if I want it but being frugal has served me well so I don’t think I’ll change now….with all the rain coming in over the next few days I’m not sure if I should plant my veggies or not…we’re supposed to get two inches of rain and that may just flood them so I may wait until next week to put them out…all of my sunflower seeds have come up so I may plant them outdoors since they won’t be in the garden and that might protict them…and I have some stuff to go in 5 gallon buckets so I may do those today or tomorrow…not much to do today….need to do the grocery run and then get on the bike to get the first ride in this morning…then the second one this aft…I think my legs will like going down to only one ride with the rain over the next 4 days…and we may be able to watch some storms, too so that will be cool…and it may be warm enough to shut the heat down for a while….it was kind of cool yesterday putting the top down on the car and then just pulling it in the garage and leaving it down overnight…going to be cold but I’m leaving it down for the grocery run this morning….more later….

Well…the damn stimulus check came today! It was supposed to be direct deposit but somehow the morons in charge screwed that up….and that was going to be a problem depositing the check with my bank having closed all of the in person banking….I had completely forgotten about drive through banking and just sat here saying duh….so I jumped in the car and ran out to the bank and got that done with no waiting…and now I have to try to figure out how to make sure any others are direct deposit…but it’s not too much of a pain to do the paper checks so no big deal…the day started out with getting out to Menards to get garden supplies and got them all with no problem there, either…even got my tomato cages for only 95 cents each so I bought 20 of them…should have enough for the overflow garden, too…and I noticed the first bean plant is coming up in the overflow garden so maybe the seeds I planted there will work…and I have at least one of those downstairs too, along with all of my sunflowers so I know I’ll have at least 8 of them….oh, and I got two bike rides in today too….I may wait to plant the tomatoes until Friday since we are supposed to get thunderstorms Thursday and I don’t want to chance hurting them when they are just transplanted….but right now, it’s 3 and I need to take a few minutes off…and to look for a political topic….more later….

Well….it appears that 4:45 is the new, standard wake up time and I’m not sure what I think about that….I knew it was going to happen so I was tempted to take an otc sleeping pill just to try to break that cycle but I’ve gotten out of that habit so I think I’ll just take the 5 hours and call it a win….and yesterday was the second day with no allergy meds since I’m trying to make them last a while but I don’t feel too bad so no damage so far….I do have to try to eat more…two days of one meal a day made the bike ride torture with running out of steam about 3 miles in…the excess wind didn’t help either and I felt so bad yesterday afternoon that I had to hit the couch for an hour or so…I guess I do need more than a thousand calories a day to support my activities…and I’ll be going back to double rides today so I think I need to get started on eating something soon…still have some homemade bread to toast this morning and I do need to get some fruit this week since I need to eat healthier and I do like oranges and apples….I am going out this morning to try to get my garden supplies so I can plant tomorrow or Thursday and I am not looking forward to it…shopping has become a pain lately and I just want it over….not much to do today…just the shopping and then some outside work after the first ride….the grass seed I put in the front is sprouting and filling in the bare spots and that is cool…and I still have some seed left to fill some of the back yard, too…more later….

Well…that was a mistake…didn’t take any allergy meds before bed last night and I am miserable this morning with all of the usual symptoms but even worse than normal…so, I am going to suffer all day until I can take something tonight as I need to make the meds last a while…what a pain in the butt…and I didn’t sleep either so I am grumpy today…and feeling like crap….I did get two rides in yesterday and that is the only thing I did all day other than cook…but today is going to be a one ride day with the temp only getting up to 50 or so and feeling so worn out….I may get out to start prepping the trim on the front and side of the front porch so I can paint it later in the week when it warms up but I may just wait until it warms up Wednesday…I do need to get out to get my tomato cages tomorrow along with some potting soil so I can get at planting Thursday with the end of the frost…I did have the first couple of garlic plants come up in the overflow garden yesterday but something is digging in it and I found black sunflower seed shells all over it that must have been buried there before I planted…weird….not much to do today…coffee, coffee, and more coffee first and then I’ll just ease into the day…don’t have the energy to do much else….more later…

Well…okay, that was early…running a little late today with getting out on the bike by 7:10 to try to beat the rain and almost did…it was spitting rain the whole 15 miles but I didn’t get too wet and it was over 48 so I could even go out in shorts….but that hot shower really felt good since the temp was borderline…feels good to get a ride in that early but I’m not sure if there will be a second one today with rain supposed to be on an off all day…but, we’ll see….slept okay last night and didn’t get out of bed til 6 but woke up at 4:30 and then tried to sleep again without much success…so crap…that only means 5 hours or so of sleep and we’re getting back to that again…I did just notice that my left shoulder is not hurting anywhere near as much as it had been but I think the tendonitus moved over to my right elbow since that hurts and is stiff again…I do have two of the garlic cloves that I planted that have sprouted but none of the other seeds I planted have yet…but with upper 60’s to 70 weather coming, I think I’ll get some of them to grow….I do have to get out to depot this week to get my tomato cages and some potting soil to put some plants in buckets in the back yard and that needs to happen before I plant Thursday with the weather breaking for good and the nighttime temps over 40 from there on out….didn’t get a lot done yesterday and today looks the same but I am going to make a pizza for lunch since I was able to find yeast this week…and how I make them, they really are pretty healthy…I even use turkey pepperoni so there is no fat in it all…and the rest of it is just veggies…oh, I do use real cheese so I guess that’s bad for you but I can live with that….more later…

Well…yeah, I’m really late with this one but I have been out of synch all day and I’m not sure why….the day just feels weird to me and a little off…and I lost two of the four tomato plants I had out last night even though they were double covered…I guess 24 degrees is just too much for them…and I’ll probably lose the other two in the next four days that it is going to be below freezing…but, I have four more going downstairs so I guess it’s no big deal other than I’ll be behind where I wanted to be….and I planted beans and sunflowers downstairs too just to make sure I can get them to come up…the garden is looking to be a bust along with the flowers out front but I’m only out about 10 bucks so I can live with that…my day is so screwed up I didn’t even eat lunch until 2:30 and that normally happens by noon or so…it’s hard to eat when I don’t get rides in since I can’t afford to not offset the calories with a ride…and I only did one today with the wind blowing over 20…it was really brutal out there on the way out into the wind….and it wasn’t warm enough to go out again…the cold ride this morning left me freezing all day and I am just now getting to feel warm again..okay, yeah, no political one today…again, haven’t even been able to get through the news to find a topic…and that is not me either….okay, think I have a topic….

Well…26 degrees…in frickin May…record cold that I can’t remember ever happening before…and I’m old…that’s just depressing….but, after the next 5 days, the weather is supposed to get back to almost normal and I am going to be able to plant my veggie garden…finally…feel pretty crappy this morning after having cocktails last night but I don’t hurt as much as I did the past few days and I hope taking the day off the bike yesterday will help that too…but I am going to get out later today after it gets over 42 so I can go out without gloves or a stocking hat….used up the last of the bird food yesterday and saw something pretty cool….some young sparrows that were being fed seed by their mother on my window feeder…have never seen that before…I did have an almost no work day yesterday but it was harder than I expected…and boring, boring, boring…the day seemed like it lasted forever and my guilt about doing nothing welled up all day to the point where it wasn’t too enjoyable….so, not going to do that today…probably won’t do a lot but I will do some stuff….have cleaning and laundry to do and I may bake a loaf of bread since I was able to find yeast at Meijers and I have some bread flour that I can use….I did cover the 4 tomato plants that I have outside but they were looking pretty scraggly even before the cold so I don’t think they are going to survive it….so I planted 4 more seeds that just came up and I will be able to plant those in their place….more later….

Well…it’s day off day! For the first time since I can remember, I am going to take the day off from everything…no bike rides, no work outside, no nothing….just a total veg day of tv and music and fooling around…okay, that sounds ridiculous, if you know me at all you’ll know that not doing anything is not possible for me…so, as the day goes on, I’ll get antsy and start thinking of a project to do and then get going doing something…but it is a good thought with how much pain I was in yesterday…and the pain continues today but the ibuprofen knocked it down enough to where I don’t have to limp around here anymore….so maybe today will be planning the rest of the projects I have to do outdoors…and starting on getting the doors off the linen closet so I can paint them and finish the interior…see, I can’t just do nothing….but I am going to veg it a little this morning and ease into the day with coffee and some tv playing in the background….but I am going to take the day off the bike since I am not going to go full thermasuit with gloves in May….and my legs can use the rest….more later….