Well…this weird thought popped into my head when I was out on the bike this morning…actually, it popped into my head on the way to GH Friday but I forgot about it until this morning. I was driving and listening to “4 Way Street” by CSNY and realized that I was doing the exact same thing 40 years ago but then I was in my 65 Galaxy…now is that consistency or just the biggest rut you’ve ever heard of? I still enjoy doing that stuff so I guess I’ll keep it up for another 40 or so….

Not a lot going on today…I really should feel like crap today but I think the bike ride helped bleed out all of the toxins from yesterday…well, not all of them but a goodly amount and with nothing planned except for a short Sunday Funday today should be okay…been eating way too much salty foods, though, and I just feel puffy today but I hope a lot of ice water will help with that. I did say yesterday that the writers block was going away…but I was wrong..this one took forever and it’s not one of the best….more later…

Well…maybe the writers block is starting go away…still not as lucid as I expect from myself but I think it has been getting better over the last few days…at least I hope so since it is one of the most frustrating things a writer can go through and I don’t need another failure like the job search. Still raining here but I hope it stops soon so K’s party will still go on this aft..if not, I’m going to have a huge batch of bean dip to eat by myself…well…that’s not too bad since I love the stuff and I’m due for some snack food binges…I’ve been so good eating veggies over the past few weeks that I won’t feel guilty when I have pizza rolls dipped in ranch dressing. K gave me a hint when we were having drinks yesterday to add some Frank’s hot sauce to the ranch and that is so good that it just feels wrong to eat it, but doing the wrong thing is what I do best and most often…

Not much else to do for the weekend…today is going to take everything out of me to where I’ll need a rest day Sunday…with starting around 1ish today and then having the night Bristol race tonight…it’s going to be a marathon and I just have to accept I’ll feel like crap tomorrow..so it’s just a warning that the posts Sunday may just be the word ow….repeated over and over…

Well.. I did go out to the beach today and got a little color but I am a little disappointed with myself since my patience ran out in the car and I was a little agressive with the idiots that don’t understand that the left lane belongs to me…or to anyone who wants to pass..not someone that wants to go 62 and become a rolling roadblock so there is s a line of cars a mile long following them. Those are the people who should get a ticket…don’t make me pass you on the right because you are trying to make everyone adhere to your weird sense of speed…90 will not kill you..try it some time it is quite fun, really. Oh, out at the beach, why the heck is it that people that weigh 350 pounds think we want to see the fat rolls in all their glory? I know, I’m not the best looking guy and I’ve had a weight problem my whole life but damn, a tiny little bikini on a 350 pound woman is just not right….

Geez….that’s quite a bit if bitching and it’s not really appropriate since my day has really been a good one…just got back from drinks with K and I’m in a pretty good mood…but I do feel that I have a responsibility to those of you that spend their time reading this stuff…and thank you for that…I will try to give you some real topics tomorrow if I don’t feel like crap….which is a real possibility since I started drinking at 3 and don’t feel like stopping…but I will because I do need to make some food…a sandwich is just not enough.. for a whole day…even though I didn’t work out or ride today…more later….

Well…a kind of boring night but I feel okay…well,,,kinda…did have a couple of mans last night so I so have that sluggish feeling that comes with it…have to do some grocery shopping again this morning to get beer and food to take over to K’s tomorrow…might go out to the beach again today since it’s going to be 87 degrees and I don’t know how many more of these days we have left this summer. Other than that, not a lot to do… I think the night races at Bristol are tonight and tomorrow so that will give me something to look forward to….more later…

Well…long day yesterday with the lunch with T and then out to Ada for pool, then a couple of mans here…should feel a lot worse than I do…I did win at pool which makes it two weeks in a row but Tom gave me three games so I’m not going to crow too much. did go ut yesterday and bought one of those little flash drives…crap…I’m just repeating myself from yesterday’s post. Let’s try something new….not much to do today… going to meet up with C later for a couple of beers probably but that is about it other than the normal routine…need to find a new pork loin recipe since they’re on sale this week for 1.59 a pound….have to go out and move my car since they are painting lines on the lot here today…yeah, I know pretty frickin boring…but I will be back later with new stuff….

Well…we’ll see if the block is still in my head today…I think it is but I’m going to keep trying…have a pretty busy day today with lunch with T and then out to Ada for pool….have to go to Best Buy, too, to get one of the little flash drives so I can get some more music from Tom…8 gigs for 20 bucks…I can remember when my whole hard drive was 40 meg and thought it was the greatest thing in the world. Yeah, you know I’m old….I remember when I was in college and the first electronic calculator was invented and it replaced the slide rules that we were using…never did get the hang of the slide rule…but that is another story for another time, or never…who knows….I may have another one of these later since there is an idea percolating….

Well…still quite blocked but needed to see if I could write anything at all…maybe that will get me started… I think I have to apologize for the false start on the last one, usually, when I get going it just flows out of me…yeah, I can hear you now…just like crap. It’s been that way since I started this thing in April and I can’t figure it out…but, that’s just one of the things that I can’t figure out…do you guys have that problem? At 57 you’re supposed to be sure of yourself and have everything figured out but as time goes on I feel less and less sure of things…maybe it’s that change thing I promised to write about way back in April.

You know how change works for me? It’s like I see changes as discrete events and automatically think and label my life as pre and post event….like I was traveling along one line and then whack; the event puts me on another path that I have no clue about how to deal with it….well…that’s not really true..it just looks different in some way and it takes me a while to start living that life without thinking about it…I don’t know if I’m being clear, if it’s the block or I’m just tilted off the normal 45 degrees skewed. But that is just a clinical description…the feelings that go with it are what I think is the key…but who knows? As I said…I just don’t know…

Well..I did go out to GH for a swim and some sun and feel much better, the waves were even bigger than Sunday and having less people around was also a plus…didn’t stay long, though since I broke my beach chair…the damn thing only lasted 15 years…now I just need to get the bike ride in some time this afternoon and I’ll be back on my fitness track. Not much else to do today but I promise, I’ll get to the placeholder some time this aft….the things that are going on in America these days are breaking through my newfound calmness and I have to release some of that anger through this post…so, stay tuned…

Well…this one is going to be short since all I want to do is hit the couch and say ow….yep, long night out with G and then a couple of mans here and I feel like crap….did win some cash playing Keno so the tab was small and that is a good thing. Trying to decide whether to go out to GH again this morning but it’s not looking good….may just take the day off and completely veg…more later…

Well…had a little bout with the manhattans last night and feel a little slow this morning…want to get back into the routine and get out to get the papers and coffee…I do have topic for later that is going to deal with the righties expected use of fear and divisivness to win the fall elections and their cynical approach to everything. But that is later, not now…going to get a haircut this morning since the head looks really weird with it this long and I don’t want to have to take care of it…yeah, that is the high point of my day but I am going to make a zucchini provencal for lunch since C loaded me up with veggies again Sat…the salsa I made last week came out good so I may as well keep trying new stuff….more later…