Well…crap….the deep blacks are back and I’ve spent the day in a fog of just existing and putting one foot in front of the other….but, I’ve spent the night sitting in the dark watching a movie and then Sense8 and I don’t feel if I can take the light right now….this whole teeth thing is freaking me out and having to have some teeth removed is like having a finger removed and I don’t like it one damn bit…I know it is my fault for neglecting my teeth but there was no other decision to be made…my son needed his house saved and I needed this one….but this is new that I don’t have the people I used to have that understood depression and life…who knew how it felt when the blacks came and how the couch was an oasis that you could spend days on until things got better….but, I’m not sure it will work this time….I don’t want to be me anymore….so flawed that my kids don’t even want to talk to me…how much does that weigh? Right now, too much…but tomorrow we go on and listen to some music and ride the bike and revel in the fog that is supposed to be out here….and hope for better days….