Well…after getting an indoor ride in this morning and making lunch, I decided to get one last outdoor ride in, too so I jumped on the bike and froze my butt off for 15 miles….my fingers are still a little painful and I’ve bee back here for an hour so I’m not sure if it was a good idea or not…I sure did need the exercise but I seem to be more sensitive to the cold as I get older and it just makes it too brutal for me to go out…and it looks like the weather is going to keep me off it for the rest of the year with the rain/snow that is coming in the next few days, and then it is going to get really cold with highs in the 20’s next week and even down to 21 for a high next Friday….I am still trying to get to the record for the  year but that will mean two indoor rides every day and I’m not sure I can muster up the dedication to do that…I guess we’ll see starting tomorrow….damn, I’m still freezing…think I’ll put the heating pad on my back to help that…..

Well…damn…not sure how I’ve been running late for weeks now but I am…up at 5:07 but not out of bed til 7:17 and it’s pushing 8 and I just poured my first cup of coffee…so that will telegraph into the entire day and I don’t like that feeling….had an okay day yesterday and did get an outdoor ride in when I was supposed to have the day off for a rest day…so I should feel good about that but I don’t…if I could do one ride, I should have done two but I was so damn cold that I didn’t warm up until I put the heating pad on my back to keep it from seizing up…so I think I’ll start the day by riding downstairs and then maybe do an outdoor ride later if it warms up enough….didn’t do a damn thing other than ride yesterday but I am going to clean the bathroom today since it is coated in dust that I don’t see unless I have my glasses on…and I made the mistake of having them on yesterday….I just noticed that the nail on my right thumb is almost healed from the damage I did to it catching it on my fence raking over a year ago…it has been split down the middle since then but it only has about 1/4th of an inch to go and the split will be gone….not much to do today….just need the damn coffee to work so I can start moving but I guess until then I can read the news and sit here a bit…and then figure out what the day is going to look like….more later

Well…yeah, I was lazy and only did one of these yesterday but I will do better today…slept okay last night but still feel a little worn out this morning and I’m waiting for the coffee to work after going out to get the paper….there was supposed to be a big snow storm later this week but it looks like it’s going to be light instead of the feet of snow they are getting in the plains and mountains to the west….and I’m okay with that…if we can get through December with just a little snow, there are only two months of winter to endure and I can live with that…I’m re-thinking getting another car in the spring since I don’t really use mine much and I’m not going to be able to afford one after all the dental work…going to take the day off the bike today since I need to rest my legs a bit and I just don’t want to ride right now…I may go down there later since it only takes about 45 minutes to keep my guilt at bay but I don’t have to and I like having that option at least one day a week…didn’t get anything done yesterday…as you know…and today is going to be the same I think…but right now all I want is to have another cup of coffee and to read the news for a bit….no world cup on today so I am just going to run the tv in the background and veg it out a bit….more later….

Well…damn, not sure how things changed but I didn’t get out of bed til after 7 again today and I still feel pretty worn out even without doing anything yesterday…and it’s almost 8 now and I need to get on the bike soon so I can be done before the world cup comes on at 10…I am going to try to get an outdoor ride in before the second cup match comes on at two but I’m still leery of going out in the cold…I did look for a pair of heated gloves the other day and I may buy a pair but then it dawned on me I have over 4 grand going out by March of next year and I shouldn’t spend any more money…if I add buying a new car that will be 12 grand and there is no way I can afford that…so, another reason to be depressed…not sure what I’m going to get done today since I haven’t planned for anything but I think I’ll move the spare mattress out of the dining room and into the spare bedroom so I can get at the trim in there…but what if I don’t want to? What if I just take the damn day off and do what I want? Yeah, I’m pretty conflicted this morning and even when I take a day off the guilts don’t let me enjoy it….and I’m tired of it….oh, well…I did finally get Yellowstone yesterday at the mid point of the second season and I am enjoying it now…thanks, Tom…..not much to do today…just need to shake off this malaise and get going but I think I’ll need another cup of coffee to do that….so I think I’ll get one and read a little news…more later….

Well…with another wasted day today, I really do need to get off my butt and get some work done around here…haven’t accomplished anything in weeks and it is starting to depress me…I do have an excuse with the world cup on but that is not enough to keep me from feeling guilty….going to start doing two rides indoors tomorrow so that will be something but I still don’t think I’ll make it to my goal for the year…oh, well…I did finally cook something other than ham today when I made chicken and roast potatoes for dinner and I need to make room for the ham bone in the freezer when I strip it down tomorrow…I think I’m puffy from all of the salt in the ham so I need to eat some other stuff for a while…I did get some Fuji apples wed and I can’t believe how hard they are…have had to cut them up into slices to be able to eat them…but I like the slices better anyway so that’s good…okay, can you tell I’m bored? I do have a book to read that I could work on but that just doesn’t interest me right now…okay, I’m done…

Well…damn, running late again today and I should feel okay with not getting out of bed til after 7 but I don’t….still worn out and I’m not sure why that would be…and I feel like I’ve gained most of the weight back that I’ve lost over the past year and I sure don’t know how that could be….oh, well….I did  get a few things done yesterday but I’m not sure about today…I am going to get on the bike here in a few minutes but there won’t be an outdoor ride today with the wind blowing like crazy and rain/snow coming in a few hours out….the world cup starts up again today with two matches so I’ll have something to keep the boredom at bay….I do need to cook some of the chicken I got at aldis today and that will be a welcome change from ham although I still haven’t finished up the mashed potatoes and gravy I made to go with the ham….I did resist going out to daily deals to get some kielbasa they have on sale since it is not good for you and I have no room in the freezer for it after I put the chicken in….I did catch another mouse in here yesterday and that is the first one in about 6 months and I hope it’s the last one in a while….had to dispatch it with my billy club and that is not something I enjoy….not much to do today…just need to get more coffee in me and read some news before I get going on the bike….but I really have no motivation right now….ugh….more later….

Well…it’s been a long, sweaty slog but I finally got to 1,000 miles today on the downstairs bike…and instead of just rolling over and start counting over, the computer on the bike just started flashing error messages so I had to reset it…and the problem with that was I couldn’t find the instructions so I spent an hour and a half looking for them everywhere and finally found them right on the table next to the couch in a bunch of paid bills….and, with getting to 4,800 on the outdoor bike yesterday, that makes 5,800 miles for the year so far and I am wondering if I can do the last 250 miles to get to my record for a year in the next three weeks…that will mean and outdoor and indoor ride every day and I’m not sure I want to do that much work…but I guess we’ll see…didn’t go outside today since I feel cold and just couldn’t get myself to go out and freeze like yesterday…I think I’m going to look for some heated gloves to just see what they cost…..

Well…damn, up at 4:08 this morning but laid back down til a little after 6 but didn’t feel like there was any sleep in there but there must have been…no dreams at all, though, and that means the sleep was pretty crappy…at least my back doesn’t hurt too much today but my abs do and that sucks….it looks like I’ll be riding indoors this morning with the temp only getting to 30 or so but I may get outside later if I get motivated….if I ride twice a day for the rest of the month, I may get close to the goal for the year since I’m sitting at 5,800 as of yesterday but to do another 250 miles by the end of the month? Not sure if that’s doable but I do feel good that I did as many as I have….didn’t get much done but laundry yesterday and I really should get to work on this place today but it’s unusual that I have such a lack of motivation that has gone on for months now…should have finished the dining room by now and I know all I have to do is start but I just don’t feel like it….oh, well…going to be working on leftovers for the next couple of days but I do need to cook  some of the chicken I got yesterday…but that will wait til tomorrow since I still have soup to use and tons of ham left….not much to do today…just need to get on the bike by 8 so that gives me time to read some news and have another cup of coffee….I think I’ll hit 1,000 miles indoors this morning and that has been a lot of work….more later…

Well…damn, that was a brutal ride…I did get two in outside today but even with little wind, they were just brutal for some reason…and I think it may be that I only had one meal yesterday and that is not enough to support doing 30 miles on the bike and I didn’t even get to lunch until almost 2pm so I think that will set me up to only have one meal again today…or I can have a bowl of soup later since I do need to use the turkey soup leftovers up before they spoil….and I did get chicken legs quarters for 59 cents a pound today and now I have 10 pounds of those that need to be frozen but I think I have room for them but it will be a tight squeeze to fit the leftover ham in to save up for making ham soup in a couple of weeks…have already heated my back once as I wait for the dryer to finish up with the bedding and couch blankets in it….haven’t even read the news today…darn, I better get going…

Well…damn, running late this morning with getting up at 5:40 and then lying back down until almost 7:30 and than never happens…but I don’t feel like I slept at all and it’s going to be hard to get going today…need to be in the shower in 20 minutes to get out for the grocery run and I don’t want to do it…it’s only 29 out there right now and that is too damn cold to ride outdoors so that may have to wait til the afternoon…the weather says it’s foggy out there right now but it’s not light enough to see that yet….looks like it could be ice fog since it’s pretty cold out there….didn’t get much done yesterday but make the big dinner for lunch but I do need to do some laundry today…there are no soccer matches on today so I won’t have any excuse for not working…but do I need one? To not feel guilty, yes…darn, haven’t even read the news yet this morning and it looks like I won’t get to it til the afternoon so there won’t be any topics until then…I know there has been a lot happening so it should be pretty easy to find one for today….okay, need to get more coffee in me before I can even think about getting going…so I think I will…more later…