Well….up early again today and I would like to sleep in just once…oh, well….I can’t believe it’s going to be 86 degrees today…I am going to get the bike ride in early today if it doesn’t rain…looks like the storms are going past to the north…we did get a little one last night but only a few flashes of lightning so I was a little disappointed…still hurt some today and my back is still caught and I’m not sure how to fix it….this is the longest time in quite a while that it’s hurt….it might be my hip, too, since I have been abusing it when I write on the couch….more later….

Well….haven’t been feeling like myself lately and just today made the connection why that is….from the lack of energy to the uneasy feelings to the paralysis in my head…depression has reared it’s ugly little head again…I almost didn’t recognize it…it has been a long time since I’ve seen more than one of the symptoms at a time….they usually just flick in and out for a day or so at a time but this one feels more like it did 20 years ago when I was on medication for it…just like almost everyone I knew back then…the heyday of Prozac. I’m not sure what the heck I can do about this one right now…but when the realization came to me out on the bike today, things became clearer….and today was a better day…I’m no longer paralyzed by it and I got a bunch of resumes out…and even listened to some music today….maybe tomorrow will be better…..

Well…up way too early again today and that is getting old…I think I slept okay last night but still no dreams…darn….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but I will need to do more today….I am going to clean some today but not too much…the kitchen needs work and I’m not sure when they are bringing the new appliances so I wonder if I should clean before they do…..nope, I think I’ll wait until they make their mess then clean…..man, I am tired this morning and this one is not going too well….so, I think I’ll just get more coffee and start to think what I want to do today…..more later….

Well….have been sitting here doing some reading today and there have been some surprising articles that have come up on the supposedly innocuous subject of Mother’s day….now, I’ve never thought that this day would have so much weight to so many people…and that so many people just hate the day. Now, I can understand some of it….if you’ve lost a child or never had one…or never had a good relationship with your mother….but the sorrow and pain that has come through today has really taken me aback….some of the commenters even go so far to just hibernate for days until the day passes….and others lash out at people wishing them “Happy Mother’s day”….not sure what to make of it….makes you think anyway…

Well….running a little late today with getting a little absorbed in the F1 race start….didn’t get much done yesterday and today looks a little the same…but there are no races on this aft so I may just have to clean a little…my back is still killing me and but I haven’t had to take anything for it yet…that may change today….I do need to get out on the bike early today with Man U playing at 11 and it is already warm enough to go out in a t-shirt so that will be okay…..not sure if I’m going to cook anything today with making chili yesterday and I do have to remember to eat enough today since I haven’t been lately….more later….

Well…running late this morning and I just can’t get started…oh, I won at pool yesterday…thought I’d get that out of the way…and I got a little bit of  a sunburn with the top down out and back…forgot the sunscreen and I have to not do that…..slept okay last night but I don’t remember having dreams in a long time and that is a little disappointing…oh, well…don’t hurt too much today and my back is even pretty good today…just a little hitch in it and I can live with that….don’t have a lot to do today but I am going to make chili….I know I need to eat more than I have been and I am going to try to fix that today…..more later….

Well…feel pretty crappy this morning and I have cramps in my calves already and I haven’t even been out on the bike yet…so, that is not a great way to start the day….I did get out to have breakfast with my son yesterday and took my car…he had never ridden in a convertible before…and that is a little weird with him being 35….didn’t do much the rest of the day but watch Man U barely win their Europa league game…not a good game but they move on to the final…..not much to do today…I do have pool this aft but I need to wash the car this morning after I get more coffee in….more later….

Well….running a little late today with getting the grocery run done and reading the paper….had a nice day yesterday with getting out to have a few with T and having a lot of laughs…my back was fine for a day but I think I re injured it working out yesterday…and it hurts like crazy this morning so I think I’ll try to crack it later….I may be going out to b-fast with my son this morning so I am going to keep this one short so I can get some coffee down…..don’t have a lot to do today other than clean a little so that is all I’m going to do…Man U is playing this aft so that will take up some of the aft so I won’t be too bored…more later….

Well….up and running a little early today…still getting up way too early but I’m not sure what to do about it….go to bed later? Nope…too damn bored to stay up later….at least the pain is less today and my back is finally a little better…I felt it crack working out yesterday and I hope it does it again today….at least the temp is up enough that I can get on the bike as soon as I finish working out….had a good ride yesterday but didn’t get much else done….with getting this place cleaned up, I don’t have a lot to do around here so I guess that’s okay….I may be meeting up with T for a couple late this aft so that is something to look forward to….more later…..

Well…with my son coming into town, he had to get a rental car to get around for a few days…and he shows up with a new Camaro….now, I’ve heard that those cars were kind of claustrophobic with the gun slot windows and the small doors, but it is worse than that….I had a hard time getting in the darn thing…much worse than my tiny little Miata and for a car that big, there is not a lot of room inside it either. I wonder what product designer signed off on it? It’s not a car I could live with on a daily basis, that’s for sure…and I’ve lived with the Miata for over 4 years now….