Well…I have really, really been trying to get the ability to write back again and you can see it has been with little success…so today, I decided to just chill and clean and try to sneak up on it but that didn’t work either…so, now what? Not sure…after I cleaned the kitchen today, I just couldn’t use any of the things I cleaned so the stovetop, pots, and pans, are still sitting there clean…even though I know I should eat more than 4 ozs of pork loin and some potato salad…..and I did get the bike ride in after the rain so that probably took care of those calories…okay, this one isn’t going anywhere….I think I need to start going out more and seeing new people…I’m just not inspired by this boring routine and I’m losing all touch with the discipline it takes to write…hmmmm…I think I need to think about this for a while…

Well…another bore of a night and for some reason, I’m running later today….was planning on going out to the beach today but it looks like it’s going to rain off and on all day so I think I’ll just hang out here and get the bike ride in and then clean…my stove needs a complete tear down and the rest of the kitchen doesn’t look much better so I guess I’ll have to get off my butt and get things done….so, there are things to do today if I just decide to do them….or I might not, who knows? More later….

Well…another night and one that is just like the last hundred or so….I could not believe how hot is was last night…helped my neighbor get her car started by pushing it and in about 2 minutes, I was soaked. Looks like the same sort of day today so I need to get all of my activity done early and then just veg out here until I head over to T’s later…but this is about the fourth time this week that we were going to get together and I’m not sure if this one will happen either with her busy schedule….we’ll see. I feel kind of okay today but not 100% and I think it may be a bug of some sort or allergies kicking in…not sure which but it is tiring. Not much to do today….going to get groceries I think, but I’m not sure if I’m motivated enough to do that this morning…..I would like to have some food here but it’s not a driving force by any means…more later…

Well…I’m running so far behind this month that I don’t know if I can catch up but I’m going to give it the old college try….it’s been a weird couple of days and I have been resisting putting the air on since I’ve already told you I see dollars leaving this place every time it comes on….but, I just couldn’t stand it today since it’s 95 degrees outside and almost 85 in here…maybe I’ll just cool it down for a while and then turn it off…I might have to meet up with T later and that is going to be fun opening up the car after having it bake in the sun all day…I will be soaked by the time I see her but what can I say? I did have to re duct tape the windshield pillar today since the old stuff had kind of melted in the sun….and I think I have another exhaust leak that is going to cost another 300 bucks that I don’t have…these little drips, drips, drips of cost are going to drive me nuts unless I find a job soon….I think I’ll stop here for now and come back later if I can think of another topic….

Well…just a short one this morning since I was not good last night and feel a little crappy today but I think I’m back to not eating right that is compounding it….just can’t bring myself to eat enough…is that an eating disorder? Yeah, probably but I’m not that concerned yet….I did have an okay day yesterday but the heat kept me from doing a lot…I do normally like it when it’s hot so I don’t know why I’m avoiding it…not much to do today….it’s raining right now so no bike ride right now…I think I’ll go back to the normal routine today….more later…..

Well…a fun afternoon yesterday with quite a few people coming out to hang for a while…I did lose at pool again but it was a close fought match so I don’t feel bad about it…..I was really good when I got home so I feel okay today but had one of the worst nights of sleep that I can remember in a long time….I think I got a total of about three hours and that was in a span of 7….I may have to go back to the otc sleeping pills for a couple of days to just get the clock reset….we’ll see…not much to do today…going to meet up with T later but not sure when….and then the resumes etc…just like always….maybe a couple with G later but I’m not sure about that….

Well….okay, yesterday was a bust if you came here to read something but I think it is just a part of the overall beat up feeling I’ve had for the last couple of weeks where I hurt everywhere…could that be impacting the brain? I think it is since I haven’t been able to come up with anything to say….I did take the day off yesterday…well…not really, I took a brain day off but, like an idiot, I went out on the bike for a long one but didn’t hurt as much after so maybe I didn’t do as much damage as I thought…will probably go out this morning for a leisure ride since it is just so nice out there….could exercise be an addiction? I feel so guilty when I don’t go out that I don’t want to eat since I didn’t burn the 600 calories that I normally do….yeah…a small window into the morass that is my head….there are things to do today….pool of course, and I think C is coming into town to hang out for a while…and I have to watch the women’s world cup…I am concerned with Japan since they looked so good beating Germany….okay, it’s 8 and I am already bored so I need to take that bike ride…..more later….I will really try to get another one out before I go out for pool…

Well…I was right…it is a painful morning but not as bad as I expected….especially after starting at 1:30 in the aft and not stopping until I went to bed….as you know, that means I really can’t write too well…as least not now so I’ll come back later after the bike ride and try to make some sense….

Well…It’s my birthday and I already feel kinda crappy…started out the birthday celebration with a couple with K and then back here for some cocktails….so this one is going to be short while I lick the wounds and drink a lot of water….then I’m going out to hit some golf balls…and meet up with K at Logan’s later for nachos and more beers….I’ll try to come back later…

Okay…I think I’ll add to this one as the day goes on…nearly just a little bit of irony on the bike ride…damn near got run over by an idiot woman that ran a red light to make a right turn…that would have been the ultimate in irony,huh? Especially since I was going to take the day off riding to let the legs rest…but, I survived it and there will be more later…bad luck, huh?

Back again…had a lot of fun out with K at Logan’s and won some money at Keno….she brought me a bottle of wine to have with my steak for dinner but I couldn’t wait until then so I’m having the wine right now…this is shaping up to be a really painful day tomorrow but I just don’t care…..might be back later…

Well…another day, another night….the sun is the same in a relative way but you’re older, shorter of breath and one day closer to death…okay, that’s not how I feel but that line from Pink Floyd ran through my head as I started and I thought it fit a little…with the birthday coming and all…it was an okay day…I did get to see G for a couple of minutes as she left for Livonia and that started my night off and helped me feel a little crappy this morning…not sure what I’m going to do today…I should go out for a few groceries…I have a weird taste for potato salad and I think I may try to make some if I can remember my mother’s recipe….I know it had eggs, radishes, and sweet pickles along with the potatoes but I’m not sure of the rest…so I’ll guess I’ll just try some and see…I may even go out and hit a few but will probably do that tomorrow….that’s about it for now…I am trying mightily to get dome political stuff out and I’m going to keep trying until it stops hurting…more later…