Well…another summer is gone and I’m not sure how I feel about that…when you’re young, it really doesn’t matter that another year had passed, you had plenty more to play with but now I can see the end coming and that makes each year a little more important…and my reaction is that I haven’t accomplished enough for the end to be coming…okay, that’s enough of that…don’t want to get more depressed than I already am…fall used to be my favorite time of the year when I was younger and, as I think back, I don’t remember why…I love the color change and that we used to play football in the fall…part of it could be that we never had AC so it was a relief when the temps came down but that just left us in a 100 year old house heated with space heaters and with no insulation…cripes, it didn’t even have plaster on the interior walls so yeah, it was cold in the winter….I guess I am looking forward to it since it takes away my excuse for not working on this place….and I do need to finish it this winter….but maybe I’ll take some color tours with the top down on the car…used to love to do that in the Fiat I owned and I have done that a lot in the Miata and it is fun….I guess I’ll have to re-discover why I liked fall so much…fall is going to be official tonight when the heat comes on for the first time since April…or was it May? I know it was cold pretty late into spring…who remembers that far back?

Well…that sucks…was going to be good and get out on the bike for the second ride…it appeared that the wind had died down a bit from this morning and the showers had ended…but as soon as I got out to the street, I got whacked by about the same wind as this morning and by the time I got a hundred yards it started to rain and it’s just too damn cold to get wet today…so I gave up and here I am…and it is pretty black to the west and it looks like I’d be under the cloud all the way out to the beach….just don’t have it in me today to take all of the abuse that another ride would heap on me….and tomorrow is looking cold until almost noon since I don’t want to put long pants on to ride yet, I have to wait until it gets over 50…I did get the combustion blower on the furnace lubed this afternoon…with the low tonight getting down to 43 and the inside of the house only needing to go down 3 degrees until it hits 65 and the furnace starts, I needed to make sure it was ready….but I didn’t do anything else….didn’t eat enough yesterday with just a salad and a chicken leg quarter for the whole day and  I’ve been feeling a little crappy today…so I think I can eat two meals even with only riding once….will still be under 1,000 calories for the day even with that….we’ll see….

Well…damn I’m sore…after going out in 25mph wind this morning and with showers coming in, I am only going to do one ride today…the ride back into the wind was just brutal and my back is so much worse that it hurts to just sit here…so, for once, I’m doing the smart thing and resting everything…I may go out later if the wind dies down and the showers end but right now that is looking very iffy…so I need to figure out some work to do after lunch….more later….

Well…damn, only up once last night and didn’t get out of bed til after 7 and that is so weird…and I just had a spider run across the computer but he didn’t make it all the way…I am so worn out that I may only do one ride today…only had about 800 calories yesterday and that is going to kill me today….so, do I try to compensate for that  or do I just live through it and know that I won’t gain any weight today? Had to close this place up completely last night since it was getting down to 52 and tonight the heat may come on for the first time with the low being 41…not ready for that yet but it is almost the end of September so I guess it’s time….my back has been really sore lately and I’m not sure how I hurt it…and the pain is wrapping around my right side…I wonder if it’s from the yard work? If it is, I really hate getting old….almost went out to the beach yesterday but it turned cloudy and I just didn’t want to make the effort…so I need to get the beach chair out of the car today and maybe even vacuum the sand out of it…both seats are full of it and it’s pretty annoying…damn, my allergies are the worst I can remember right now and I am stuffed up, coughing, and miserable….not much to do today….could I just skip the rides today? Haven’t had a day off in a long time…and this old body is just tired…it’s already 8 and I just don’t want to go…..I guess we’ll see….more later….

Well…damn, two days in a row of sleeping through the night and I don’t know how the hell that happened…didn’t get out of bed til 6:23 this morning but I feel like it was 1:23….just worn out again and it could be that it’s almost 7 and I just started my first cup of coffee….not sure when I’m going to get out on the bike today….it’s not light until almost 8 now so that puts me too late to get a ride in before I do the grocery run….okay, the banner on the bottom of the screen just came up with a new alert for a “great sunrise” and I’m not sure what to make of that…..hmmm….didn’t get much done yesterday and today will probably be the same but I really should do some work….but what work? Is the grocery run  work? If it is, then I will get some work done today….the new Star Wars tv show “Andor” starts today and I hope plex will pick it up…I have been watching “The man who fell to Earth” and it’s a pretty good show and it’s nice to have something that allows me to stop my brain for a couple of hours a night….and the lead is the guy who played the bad guy in the movie of “Firefly” and I like his work….not much to do today….just the grocery run and the bike rides and then figuring out what to cook for my meals today….but I have leftovers of chicken and ribs so that won’t take much work….more later…

Well…damn, made a good decision this morning when I got back here from the first ride…I was planning on getting right back on the bike to get the second ride in but checked the radar first and saw that the rain was a lot closer than I expected so I put the bike in the garage and it started raining about 10 minutes later..still pretty light right now but I can hear some thunder out there and there was no way I could have done another hour plus on the bike before it starts to really rain…so, I’m on to the third one of these already and may even do more if the news cooperates and gives me topics…more later?

Well…that was a little abnormal…slept through the night and didn’t get out of bed til almost 6:30 but I sure don’t feel like I slept much….and it didn’t rain overnight like forecast so I went through all that work yesterday for nothing…okay, not for nothing since I don’t have to work today and it may rain later in the morning…there is a huge blob of storms that are over in Wisconsin and just might graze us here….had the weird credit card dreams last night where I was almost out of gas and the card didn’t work at the pump and then they lost it when I went inside to pay…boy, my brain is strange at times…I am a little sore from all of the walking and bending yesterday and mostly in my calves from stretching them….my legs have been hurting a bit on the bike lately and I think it’s from overuse…okay, and not eating enough since I feel like I’m gaining weight again and I don’t like that at all…I did thaw some chicken to have in the next day or so and I still have lots of the brats I bought last week so I don’t think I’ll get any protein this week…and I have a new head of lettuce for salads that I need to use today….I wonder if most people think this much about what they eat or do they just wing it? I guess that is why there is so many fast food restaurants out there that I don’t use…but I would love some french fries….not much to do today…need to get on the bike by 8 so that gives me about 40 minutes to pour more coffee into me and start waking up….but that is going to be a chore…more later….

Well…as I was sitting here taking it easy this afternoon, just out of habit I checked the weather for the rest of the week, thinking that I had at least one more day to get the yard work done…it needed feeding for the fall and I was planning on doing it tomorrow…but, the weather forecast had changed to scattered storms that could be severe over the next 4 days…so I ran and got the spreader out and filled it with food and got the lawn fed…but then, I noticed that it had gotten pretty long and with not being able to mow it until Friday, it was going to be too tall so I got the mower out and mowed it,too…as I was doing that, I noticed that some animal has been digging up the grass on the terrace out front and leaving big bare spots…so I got the grass seed and topsoil out and seeded and filled all those spots so they will grow in the rain…see what I mean about snowballing? All I wanted to do was feed the lawn and do a little bit of work that would take about 20 minutes and it snowballed into over two hours of sweating and getting dirty…and it’s almost 7 so I need to make some ice and get ready for taking some time off…I guess I did burn enough calories today even with only one bike ride…

Well…I finally decided to do one last beach run today and the water was even warm enough to swim and I spent almost an hour playing in the waves…and I got a booster for my tan to go along with it…and I only did one ride since I went out to get some stuff at Menards and just didn’t feel like getting back on the bike today…yeah, I’m as shocked as you are…I sure hope this isn’t a slippery slope to not riding at all…just felt worn out today and I hope that the hour in the waves will be like a half ride and I won’t feel too bad about skipping…I am sure this will be the last time out there for the year and I am ready for it to be done so I can get to work on this place again….

Well…not sure how it happened but I didn’t get out of bed til 7:20 this morning…and for the first time in a while I don’t feel any urgency to get out on the bike…and I may not even ride at all today…okay, that’s not going to happen but it’s a nice thing to think about…I’m still struggling with just living and not having a schedule and running to get things done…but today just may be a breakthrough…yeah, that’s just wishful thinking on my part…I think it may have rained last night but I am getting a little annoyed that it always happens when I’m sleeping…the rain is soothing and I can use a little of that right now…it would be nice to have a day to just screw around and do whatever I want…and yeah, I should be able to control that but my compulsions and looking in the mirror to see that I’m gaining weight again won’t allow that…man, it’s a weird morning….I do have an errand to run this morning to Menards since I need to get the fall lawn food, a can of wd, and some lawn bags….and I’ll probably put the food on today and do a weed walk to start getting the lawn ready for winter…the weather is going to change big time later in the week with the high getting down to around 60 and that will end the summer for me….not much to do today….I really do want to just sit here for a while and read the news and I just might….it may be a one ride day today and I’m gritting my teeth about that…boy, my head is just too jumbled today…more later…