Well…cripes…the damn computer updated last night and it has taken me a half hour to get it running again….didn’t sleep much last night and was up at 5:04 and out of bed by 6:23 and I’m pretty worn out…didn’t get on the bike yesterday but need to do two rides today to keep from getting fat….did the math last night and riding the bikes burned 240,000 calories this year and prevented me from gaining 80 pounds but I sure don’t feel like that’s enough…I wonder if I should do three rides a day? That would suck since even doing two downstairs take up a lot of time and uses up my whole morning…but what else do I have to do? Yeah, I could be doing woodwork in the dining room but I’m just not motivated to do that right now….hmmmm….didn’t get a damn thing done yesterday but I will try to do something today…the rugs need vacuuming and there is dust everywhere and I remembered that I do have to replace the furnace filter so I’ll get one of those Wed when I do the grocery run…we’re into that cold spell that was coming and it’s only 23 degrees out there and I feel cold sitting here…had to have a blanket over me last night just watching tv….not much to do today…just going to have more coffee and then get on the bike by 8 so I can get the second ride in by 10 or so…I do need to find out when the January 6th committee hearing is on so I can watch it…but I will just wing the rest of the day…don’t have to cook with making the big ham yesterday and still having soup in the fridge and I’ll be eating off that all week….I think I may get the ingredients for ham soup this week to use the three ham bones I’ll have after I finish this ham….but I don’t want to think about anything right now….more coffee….more later….

Well…damn, I am breaking my routine this morning with not going out to get the Sunday paper…they haven’t plowed the streets out here and there is at least 8 inches of snow on them and I don’t want to get the car stuck….and I only get the paper for the ads anyway and I got the ones I want in the little paper they deliver on Friday….feel a little crappy today and still think I’ve got a cold so I’m going to act like I have one and take care of myself today…and that means taking it easy and no bike rides…I am going to make a big meal today with a ham and all of the sides that I will need to get in the oven by 10 or so….and the world cup final is on at ten, too, so I’ll have something to watch…and the Lions play later so it will be a lazy day that I am looking forward to…will have to go out and shovel the snow again and I guess there is another big storm coming so I need to go out for supplies at some point but I’ll wait til they plow to do that….not much to do today….just need to have lots more coffee to get my brain jump started or maybe I’ll just let the morning unfold slowly and sit here a bit….more later…

Well…have been having computer problems today with it getting really slow…it wouldn’t even restart so I had to unplug it and take the battery out of it…and then getting my browsers reloaded took me about a half hour but here I am…I have a conundrum…just noticed that Meijers has turkeys on sale this week for only 55 cents a pound…so, what do I make for the holidays? I am going to make another ham tomorrow but do I buy a third ham later in the week or do I get a turkey and make that instead? I think I may do that since I can get a 12 pounder for around 6 bucks and I’m down to only one container of soup in the freezer from the last batch and I should make ham soup first…and I probably shouldn’t have anymore salty ham…so it looks like I’ll get a turkey wed and it should be thawed or close to it by Sunday so I won’t have to think about protein for the next two weeks….and then I need to just stop eating at all for about a month when I get off the bike for three weeks…ick….okay, time to shovel the slush off the walks….and then salt them…

Well….damn, I think I may have a cold…have been coughing and feeling a little worn out today and my head is completely plugged up, too…so how the hell could that happen with always having a mask on when I go out? It does feel a little like I’m not eating enough and I wonder if a chicken leg and a handful of baked fries is enough for the big meal today? All I’m going to have for dinner is a bowl of turkey soup and a couple of crackers and that is the same as I had yesterday…let’s see, how many calories is that? 300 for the leg quarter and probably close to that for the fries and 100 for a glass of milk…so 700 or so and the bowl of soup is about 200 and the crackers are about a hundred and a hundred for another glass of milk, so 400 so that makes it 1100 for the day for the past two days…but I’m still gaining weight and I just hate it…I did do two hard rides this morning but that’s only about 700 calories burned…okay the calculator on the internet says that riding as I do burns 700 calories per ride but that just can’t be…if it was I wouldn’t be gaining weight…crap…oh, well….

Well…up before 7 this morning after waking up at around 4 and my legs are hurting like crazy for some reason…I wonder if it’s fallout from doing 16 miles a day on the indoor bike? Don’t know but I do know I need to get on the bike soon if I’m going to get two rides in before the third place game in the world cup comes on at 10…hmmm…maybe my legs hurt because I shoveled snow twice yesterday? I do need to get out there and do that again after I get off the bike and it looks like two a day or more with all the snow we are forecast to get…oh, well…it’s December in Michigan and that’s to be expected….didn’t get anything done yesterday and don’t really have anything to do today since I have leftovers to eat but I am going to make the next ham tomorrow and that will get me through for a week or so and I wonder if I’ll get one more if they are on sale next week? That would give me a lot of ham bones to make soup…at least three or maybe 4 so that will make some hearty soup….and I think I’ll do that before the new year….didn’t get the little paper with the ads that normally comes on Friday so I guess I’ll have to go out for the paper tomorrow to see them….not much to do today…just need to get on the bike here in a few minutes and get the day started but I want another cup of coffee and to read the news first….man, I’m tired….more later….

Well…man, I think I may have dodged a bullet with my depression today….yesterday, it felt like a bad one was coming on but I don’t feel it today at all…and that never happens but I’ll take it…it’s been a good but unproductive day today and all I did so far is get the two rides in and make lunch and then read the news on mastodon for a couple of hours but I will need to go out and shovel the snow before long but I want it to stop snowing first…looking at the radar that isn’t going to happen for quite a while so I probably can do the snow after dark if it keeps snowing that long…and it looks like snow for the next week so I’ll be out there a lot and I don’t mind that at all…looks like I’ll have to heat my back after shoveling since it has had low grade pain all day today but just on my right side and that is more normal than it hurting all across my lower back…..okay, it’s getting lighter out there so I think I’ll go shovel….maybe more later…

Well…up at 6:09 this morning and that is a little more like normal…but the depression that I could feel coming on last night is here so I’m not sure how the day is going to go…just poured the first cup of coffee and I sure hope it starts to work soon…had to put two pairs of glasses on to read my tablet this morning and I find that a little funny…but I can read my laptop just fine so I can do this with no problem….damn, I seem to be compensating a lot lately as I get older and I don’t like it much…it did start to snow last night and the lawn is covered and I wonder how much we’ll get today….as I said before, it is going to be kind of a hibernating day today and probably tomorrow with a winter weather advisory on for the day and I wonder if I should go out and walk around in it? I need to do something…okay, no I don’t…I’ve lived with depression my entire life and I know how it goes….it’s more of a nuisance than anything else and I’ll get through it….I do need to cook today and I’ll bake some chicken for lunch and then have some turkey soup for dinner and that will be what I’ll have for the next two days…still feel like I’ve gained back most of the weight I’ve lost but that can’t be true…but I do have to cut back to one meal a day to get ahead of the three weeks off the bike in January but I don’t want to do it now…the next couple of weeks is going to be as normal as I get around here…not much to do today….going to get on the bike in 30 minutes or so but I really don’t have much else to do today…so I’m just going to try to not put any stress on myself to keep to a schedule…after all, I have the entire day and the only thing I need to do is the two rides but that doesn’t seem to be too attractive right now…more later….

Well…with washing my outdoor bike and moving it downstairs this afternoon, I guess the decision to not ride outside anymore is final…it’s going to snow 4-8 inches out here in the next day or so and continue all next week with the cold coming in…so we’ll lose the trails anyway…I do need to organize the bike room better since I put the spare mattress in there yesterday but I had other things to do today….I did get out to pick up the items I forgot at Meijers yesterday so I’m good to not go out anywhere until next week and I can just sit here and watch the snow come down and then go out and shovel…and do two rides downstairs that I’m getting used to…I may shift up to three a day if I get bored but should probably use that time to start prepping the dining room for paint….I did get laundry done today and it looks like the timer on it is still working so that takes a load off…thought I was going to have to get a kitchen timer to use for it but don’t now….I did get another big ham today that I am going to cook Sunday but I have chicken and soup thawing until then…I do need to put the last ham bone in the freezer today and then I’ll make soup from the three I’ll have later….I guess I should get going but I needed the heating pad on my back and it feels good….maybe more later….

Well…damn, running late again today with waking up at 5 but not getting out of bed til almost 7…and I should be on the bike right now but just started my first cup of coffee and I need to have it start working soon….man, I forgot so much doing the grocery run yesterday that I have to go back out this morning and do it again…and that is not normal…and I have a weird taste for bagels and cream cheese but I can’t afford the calories so it will remain a taste…and substitute an apple I guess….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but the two rides and I’ll probably do the same thing today after I get the errand run but I am so damn worn out I don’t want to do anything….at least my back isn’t hurting much so I guess that’s something…..I do have to do laundry today but that will be about all for me….the attraction of taking the day off is pretty strong today but I know that all I have to do is get going and I’ll be okay….it looks like it is going to rain all day today but at least it’s not snow…yet…but the cold is coming next week and that will mean hibernation for me….but I do have to get used to winter weather here pretty soon since it’s going to come no matter how I feel about it….not much to do today…going to get on the bike right now and should be out to run the errand by 8:30 or so….and then I can do the second ride by 10 but I’m not sure what I’ll do with the rest of the day after that….don’t want to do anything right now…just frickin worn out….more later….

Well…damn, not sure if I can get going fast enough to be on the bike in 5 minutes…got out of bed a little earlier that has been the norm lately and broke the string of getting up at 7:30 with dragging my butt out at 6:30 today….I do need to keep up the two rides a day so I have no choice but to get going soon….but I feel so damn worn out that I could just sit here and get ready to do the grocery run….but I won’t and I wonder what that says about me? I did get a few things done yesterday with moving the spare mattress downstairs to get it out of the way for me to work on the dining room and I wonder why I let it sit there for almost two years when I have tons of room in the basement? Oh, well…now I just need to keep going on the trim in there but I’m going to be so busy that I may not get to it today…and I do want to watch the world cup match today….not much to do today…just the grocery run and then back here to ride the bike again and do a couple more of these…kind of boring, I know, but that’s my life…..more later….