Well…had a pretty good day with my daughter getting here this afternoon…loaded up with stuff for the house that we have most of put away…and for the first time in almost twenty years, someone cooked for me…she made a ground turkey and pasta dish in the instant pot that was very good and she is going to cook again tomorrow and the rest of the time she is going to be here….have new dishes and glasses and plates and pots and knives and lots of new towels and clothes….and spices and food…so it’s the first day of no cocktails and I guess that’s working out….going to take her around and show her the beach and trails tomorrow…and she is going to make me a curry soup that she likes….going well so far….good to have her here…

Well…damn, three days until my surgery and my life changes completely today with my daughter getting here this afternoon…when you live alone, you never have to close a door or think about what you’re wearing or doing and now I have to think about all of that…and entertain someone….somehow, I hurt my right leg sleeping last night and I’m not sure if it’s my hip or thigh…I guess I’ll find out when I get on the bike…still have to put a bunch of stuff away and clean the living room this morning and I think I’ll still be embarrassed about my house and how I live…supposed to be more normal at 70…cripes, I’m depressed today knowing what’s to come….got a bunch of stuff done yesterday and will need to get after it as soon as I get the rides in….the little widget at the bottom of my screen says “rain coming” and it may sprinkle a bit but I’m still going out…need to get going by 7:30 so that means I have a half hour to drink coffee and reflect on what’s to come….it will be weird to not drink for almost 3 weeks but it will give me something to look forward to….not much to do today…well…that’s not true…will have to help unload the car and put stuff away…and I need to box up my old pots and pans…man, this is a lot of work…more later….

Well…dang, I have been so busy today that it’s after 5 and I’m just getting here to do this one…started out with the bike rides then I cleaned the bathroom from top to bottom…then out to GH to have lunch with T and she told me that her husband is “intimidated” by me so she’s lying to him when she meets up with me…that’s not her and I hate what a jealous husband is doing to her…oh, well…not my business…then I got back here  around 4 and cleaned the microwave and stove top and the last thing I have to do is clean the living room tomorrow…tonight is my last day of cocktails since my daughter doesn’t drink and I’m not going to pour cocktails in front of her…so, one more relaxing night and then on to the surgery…still have to mow the lawn short Sunday and get rides in tomorrow and Sunday…I haven’t even had time to read the news yet today so I’ll get at that right now…

Well…damn, up at 6:08 this morning and I have been grinding my teeth all night so they hurt this morning…first cup of coffee is pouring down as I get ready to get out on the bike for the first time…it was really noisy up here last night with all of the motorcycle crap going on…and the assholes to the north took advantage of the bands playing downtown to play their thumpy assed bullshit almost all night….but I didn’t make a call and I guess that’s a win…going to try to get on the bike by 7:30 this morning since I have so much cleaning to still do before my daughter gets here tomorrow….man, this is going to be hard…counting down to the surgery and it’s funny that I saw an ad for cancer treatment at U of M calling it the “best hospital in the US” and I sure hope it is….glad the woman’s world cup is on and gives me some small distraction after the surgery….I am not good depending on anyone for anything and being helpless is going to test me like nothing before….but, I’ve done everything I could to get the best outcome for me and I don’t dare hope it’s going to be easy….it’s kind of like the rest of my life lived with depression…I endured a lot of it but didn’t live it….maybe that will serve me well here, too…I know how to endure….more later….

Well…yeah, I know…have been quite lazy about coming here and writing lately and I’m not sure why other than I do a lot of it over on Mastodon but no politics at all so I should really be trying harder here…but I think the cancer and impending doom of surgery along with cleaning and cleaning is wearing me out…and today was the last beach day for me for the year and that was a little bittersweet but fun with some great waves…didn’t stay out there long…just long enough to spend about 45 minutes in the water and then came back here…the periodontist appointment went well and I’m healing like I’m supposed to and they don’t need to see me again until October for the last time…and I did buy food I didn’t need but there is room in the freezer with taking soup out that I’ll have for the next two days…so, I’m going to go look for a topic…idiot boy has not been indicted so far today and that would be an easy one to do…so we’ll see what I can come up with…

Well..damn, up at 6:10 this morning and I am worn out again today…still have water in my right ear from swimming yesterday and I am sore from it but it’s a good sore…crap, I have to be at the dentist in less than an hour and a half and I sure don’t want to do that at all….I was really hoping that it would rain out here today but it looks like the storms are staying to the north and that sucks…had an okay day yesterday but didn’t get much done and I may be having lunch with T today so that will make for another wasted day…still need to clean so this place will be presentable when my daughter gets here but I have til Sat afternoon to get that done….going to hit DD this morning to get some lean ham for 3 bucks for a pound and a half and then take a look at the bargain freezer to see what they have…probably shouldn’t with the food my daughter is bringing but I don’t want her to have to cook all the meals for the two weeks she’ll be here…not much to do today….have to be at the dentist in an hour and can’t get moving….going to be a lot of work….more later…crap…I’m going to have to come back here since the appointment is so early and DD doesn’t open til 9…oh, well…

Well…when I was out on the bike coming back after the second ride, I heard the phone ring and while I would normally just ignore it, with all of the calls from the people working on me I took the phone out and it said “healthcare” and that meant it was from the U of M health system…so I pulled over and I’m glad I did since it was the scheduler with the time of my surgery next Tuesday…they need me there at 5:45 in the morning and I couldn’t be happier…I like to get this stuff out of the way as early as possible as my daughter does so she was happy to not have to wait all day…and that means I should be done with the surgery by 10 or so and that will get me out of the hospital early Wednesday morning…so it’s all coming together…now I just need to go to the follow up at my periodontist at 8 am tomorrow morning and I’ll be ready for moving forward….getting there…

Well…feel so worn out this morning and I’ve been grinding my teeth so they hurt like crazy today…and I only have 14 minutes before I need to get on the bike to get the first ride in before I do the grocery run…have two years worth of beer cans to take back and that will be the first time since I’ve lived here…got some cleaning done yesterday and need to keep that up today to make sure everything is clean before my daughter comes…I am concerned she is going to be disappointed with me and this house and how I live…and that is not helping with my depression at all….forgot to close up the house last night and it got down to 58 so it’s cold in here right now…only have 5 more days that I can ride the bike and I have no plans on what to do when I can’t ride anymore….need to starve myself for the next two months and get down to around 500 calories a day but I don’t think she will allow that….trying to not think about how hard this is going to be….not much to do today…damn, I’m late for getting on the bike already but I’m so tired….this is going to be a hard day…more later…