Well…damn, you could almost set a clock to my wake up time over the past few days…up at 5:04 again this morning but laid in bed til 6:43….might have slept a bit in that time but had no dreams so it doesn’t count….I think I’m going to have to eat more today since I feel so worn out this morning and I’m running on fat reserves that my body has a hard time using…not going to get on the bike before Man U plays at 9…or maybe I will…not sure right now since it’s only 7:30 I could get on by 8 an still do the ride and get a shower in before 9 but don’t I deserve a day off? Leaning toward that with how I feel right now…but, I’ve got the whole day so I may feel more like it later….didn’t get a lot done yesterday other than ride the bike and today looks the same…I do have to cook today so I’m going to do some chicken thighs, baked potato, and some green beans and still try to keep my calories around 500….a thigh is 150, half a baked potato is about 100 and the beans are also a hundred and with a glass of milk, that will make it about 450 calories…then I can have an orange this afternoon for about another 100 and I can live with that…I did buy some new spices that I want to try on the chicken so that will be fun…not much to do today…I do need to ease into it and have more coffee as I wait for Man U to start at 9….more later…

Well…okay, got to 5:14 this morning but stayed in bed until 7:23 and that is getting to be the pattern…well…not yesterday…I think getting up before 6 yesterday set me up for sleeping more today…still feel worn out but part of that is staying under 500 calories yesterday but I don’t think I can hit that goal today since I have some chicken thighs that need to be cooked…one thigh and half a potato with some green beans is going to put me at about 500 before I have an orange this afternoon…so today will be a 600 calorie day…didn’t have a good day yesterday with obsessing about the missing keys and wallowing in the resulting depression but today will be better…it has to be…not sure if I’m going to do two rides today…I may just wing it and see what happens….lots of sports on today with soccer right now and the truck race on at 10:30 so I need to get a ride done before then…and that gives me about an hour before I need to get on the bike….and there are two races on this afternoon that I want to see from Daytona so I’ll need to get the second bike ride in right after the truck race at 12:30….not much to do today….just the races and to try to find a topic in politics for a change….more later…

Well…haven’t been out on any of the sites today so finding a topic has been a bit of a chore…and I still haven’t found my keys and that sucks…that means I’ll have to go out next week and have another one made for the car but I have spares for the door keys so that’s okay…was going to look if I may have dropped them in the yard but with the snow last night it will be a week or so before I can look for them…I did get a bike ride in this morning and I’m going to ride again today in a few minutes…and I think I’m done with food after having small chunk of ribs (3×5 inches) and I’ll probably have an orange for later this afternoon and that will keep me at about 400 calories for the day and 1K combined for two days….must have gained 5 pounds when I was off the bike even with keeping the cals under 800 for the three weeks and I can’t stand it…feel so fat that all the work I did over the past year is gone…I wonder why no one else has to do this to maintain their weight? I mean, I’m burning an extra 1200 calories and not taking anything in so why am I gaining weight? This just sucks and I need to get on the bike again in 10 minutes….oh, well…

WelI….damn this sucks…up at 4:16 and then out of bed at 5:23 and I am so damn worn out…not sure how misplacing a set of keys could send me spiraling into depression but it has…I was balancing on the edge of it anyway with all of the health problems and doctor and dentist appointments coming up in the next 6 weeks…and the snow…we got almost 6 inches out here last night and I’ll need to get out to shovel it here in a bit…I did keep my calorie count down around 600 yesterday and need to do the same today to get rid of the weight I gained being off the bike…and I need to ride twice but it’s 6:30 and I can’t imagine doing that right now…didn’t get a lot done yesterday and I am going to obsess about the keys all day until I find them but I’ve already looked everywhere I can think of with no luck…crap…and I hurt my left knee and right shoulder somehow and I may even need to take something for it…another crap…not much to do today…just going to try to survive it and at least get the rides in…have leftover ribs to heat up today so I won’t need to cook until tomorrow and will need to put the chicken in the freezer and will consider it a good day if I can do that….more later…

Well..man, getting out of bed was a process this morning…woke up at 5:04 but was able to get back to sleep in small chunks that ended at 7:23…had some weird dreams in that time that had “The Way of the World” by Genesis running through it….feel pretty worn out today with having to think about the health problems I’m having and the logistics of all of it…figuring out how to get to and from the appointments for my teeth and what needs to happen before then…oh, well…I did sleep okay last night so I should feel okay but I don’t….need to run an errand this morning but that’s the last thing I want to do…but we are supposed to get 5-8 inches of snow out here tonight along with high winds so it looks like a hibernation day that I hope will be the last one….there are races on from Daytona tonight so that will be the plan for later and I’ll push the good shows on Plex back until Friday night….but the truck race is on then so I don’t know if I’ll get to them…not much to do today…just want to get the errand run soon so I can settle in and take it easy for a bit…don’t need to cook until tomorrow with leftover chili and ribs in the fridge but to need to plan what will be next….more later…

Well…have had another pretty good day and got a few things done so that is cool…started out with doing the grocery runs and for once, got everything that was on my list…even some navel oranges at Aldis for under three bucks for a 4 pound bag…when I got back, I did a ride indoors and decided that one was enough after doing 30 miles yesterday…I do have to arrange my freezer since I had to put stuff on top of the ice cube trays and that won’t work when I fill them later…there is some food in there that has been there since I bought this house two years ago so that can go to make room…just marinated some small rib pieces to have for dinner tonight and the dishes are done and now I am done for the day….need to watch some soccer…Arsenal needs to get it in gear to beat Man city down 1-0…

Well..running about on time today with not getting out of bed til 6:30…slept all the way through the night without getting up and I guess not sleeping at all Monday night had something to do with that…or maybe getting two rides in outdoors did it….still feel pretty worn out with the news of my medical problems yesterday but what can you do? Other than the rides, I didn’t get anything done yesterday and I only have the grocery runs to do today,,,it looks like we may get a winter storm tomorrow night with 5 inches of snow and high winds and I really hope that’s the end of it for this year…the temps are going to fall into the 20’s for a couple of days but it looks like the snow will melt over the next week…that’s my hope anyway….I do have some time to kill before the grocery run so I’m going to just sit here and read some news looking for topics for more of these later…it looks like the rides will be inside today with the little icon at the bottom of the screen saying “wind” and I can hear it’s blowing out there already….but it will probably only be one today with feeling as I do right now….not much to do today…just the grocery runs and then back here for the rest of the coffee…I do have to cook something since I only have leftover chili in the fridge….maybe some of the chicken thighs I’m getting at Meijers? More later….

Well…as you know, I had an appointment with a urologist this morning to check out a lump in my prostate and when I asked her after the exam what she thought, she is pretty sure we are going to find cancer when they do the biopsy at the end of March….one good thing is that they have refined the biopsy procedure so they only have to poke me twice to get what they need to confirm it…I do like this doctor so that is a a good thing…very friendly and outgoing…she didn’t really feel concerned, though, since 95% of prostate cancer is slow growing and is normally localized so those are good odds….and we’ll figure out what the treatment plan will be in April…oh, well…

Well…that sucked…only slept about 3 hours last night and tossed and turned enough to hurt myself overnight…and I need to get ready for the urologist appointment at 8….I was good last night and feel pretty good this morning so I guess that’s something…had an okay day yesterday with having lunch with T and a lot of laughs and it was nice to be out for a bit…still uncomfortable going out and sitting indoors and I won’t be doing that again anytime soon…started to get a ride in outdoors yesterday since they said the wind was only about 7 but when I suited up and got out, it was blowing around 20 on the point and the temp had dropped 5 degrees so I gave up at only 4 miles…and today looks like I’ll be riding indoors with a gale warning in effect out here…winds of 20-30 and gusts of up to 45…but it is going to be 50 so that is nice…but it is going to get cold again…like it should be in Feb, for the next couple of weeks but that gets us to March and I have my fingers crossed that it will turn into spring soon…not much to do today…just the doctor’s appointment and then at least one ride….will try for two after not riding yesterday…should be back here by 9 or so and then I’ll have more coffee and figure out the day….more later….

Well…running a little late today with not getting out of bed until after 7…and I’m feeling quite worn out this morning with only eating a bowl of chili and a small slider burger and doing 15 miles outside on the bike…it looks like I’ll get an outdoor ride in again today and tomorrow but then back downstairs with the temps falling back into the 30’s for the rest of the week…but it’s still going to be above freezing so I guess that’s good…maybe no snow for the rest of the winter? Didn’t get anything done yesterday but get my pre doctor’s appointment check in done and that had a 5 page questionaire that I had to fill out and I realized that I don’t have any symptoms of prostate disease at all…and, at my age, that’s a good thing….I do have to clean a bit today and get some meals planned…have to look in the freezer to see what is in there…have had a lot of burger lately so I need some chicken or maybe some pasta….but not til tomorrow since I have enough burger and chili for today…I can’t believe I get 6 burgers out of a pound…not much to do today…just going to take it easy for a while and then go down for a ride just in case I can’t get outside today….the medical stuff starts tomorrow so no cocktails tonight and I go into survival mode until the middle of March….oh, well….more later…