Well…damn, feel like crap this morning and did it to myself…and that makes me feel even worse…..my right foot is swelled up like every time I do this stupid crap and I wonder how I keep doing this at my advanced age? Shouldn’t I have this figured out? Crap, crap, crap…..at least I had the top down on the car when I went out to get the paper this morning and that woke me up a bit….got some bad news from T at 5 am this morning…her mom fell down the stairs at her house and broke her arm in two places…what else is she going to have to go through? I feel so bad for her and her mom…and that puts my small troubles in perspective….another crap….I don’t want to get on the bike this morning…I really don’t want to do anything….can I just sit here on my couch? Nope…..is there a reset button I can push for my brain? It seems that’s what I need today but if I don’t get on the bike my day will be bathed in guilt and I’ll feel even worse…didn’t get anything done yesterday but laundry and the day feels like such a waste….I did do 30 on the bike but that is the minimum now it seems…okay, this has gotten to be too much work and I don’t want to do it anymore….and it’s father’s day and I’ll only hear from my daughter….not from the boys…how crappy is that? More later….

Well…on the way back from the first ride today, I noticed that there was another, different cruise ship docked at the pier down the hill from me and I still think that’s kind of weird….there is still nothing to see or do here so why stop? This ship was also a nice blue and white that looked pretty cool and looked quite new so I wonder how they make money on the great lakes? Must be an expensive cruise…hmmmm…I did get two rides in and washed the bike and then re-lubed the chain that I used my brass detailing brush and dish soap to scrub clean first…so that is drying now and will be ready to go in the morning for the first ride tomorrow but I am still trying to figure out when I get a day off to rest a bit with no rain in the forecast for an excuse….okay, I need to read some news for a topic on politics and then come back in a bit….

Well…that was okay, slept pretty good last night and didn’t get out of bed til 6:24 so that is a big win for me….and nothing hurts too much and that is a bonus…I do feel that I got some sunburn from the beach yesterday but that was the plan…and I got burned even with having 30 sunscreen on from the bike rides….but no beach today…did 5 days in a row and I think my skin needs a rest as I do….darn, it’s only 52 degrees out there right now so it will be a fleece morning when I get on the bike and I need to have lots more coffee before I do that….didn’t get much work done yesterday but get some more grass seed and dirt put in and probably won’t do much today other than water the lawn to try to keep it alive….need to take a look to see when F1 qualifying is on so I can make sure I have the bike rides done before then….I really like the ham that I got for 1.88 from DD this week and even better, it came in some reusable containers that are pretty cool and that I can use….they are an unusual size that is between all of the other containers I have and I may just go back there Monday and get a few more….will need to find some room in the freezer but they don’t take up a lot so I think I can do it….and it will be nice to have easy food that I don’t have to cook….not much to do today…going to get on the bike here in a few minutes and then let the day just kind of happen…feel pretty worn out this morning and really don’t want to think much or plan anything…..I think the 30 miles a day is starting to wear on me but I’m not sure how I can take some time off to get some rest….the guilts are hard to fight….more later….

Well…that was a little better…only woke up once last night and stayed in bed til 6:23 so I’ll take that any day….must not have slept on my right shoulder much since it doesn’t hurt much today…still hurts but not enough to do anything about it….and I didn’t have to run the ac unit last night with it being cooler than the past few days but it looks like we’re heading back to the mid to upper 80’s in the next week or so and I have been waiting for that weather for quite a while…just wish it would rain like every other day so I don’t have to spend all that cash to keep the lawn alive…but it’s not in the forecast for the next couple of weeks so I can hear the money going out with the clacking of the water meter…..oh, well…I did get out to the beach yesterday but only for a short time since I wanted to see the hearings but I still got a little burned even with sunscreen on so I’ll need to go up to 50 from 30 today…the water was cold but nice and I got a 20 minute swim in…and there were very few people at the beach so I had a 30 yard stretch all to myself…have never been out there on a weekend and I wonder if I should give it a try tomorrow? Not sure if I want to deal with the crowds or even if I can get a parking spot if I go out after noon…not much to do today…I probably should get at patching the lawn since I have the topsoil and seed to do it but I’m not sure if I want to…could probably do a little to keep the guilt at bay….and I’ll have time after the beach trip if I can get on the bike by 7:30….I am going to take a day to just do what I want soon…so does that mean I don’t want to get on the bike everyday? I don’t think so but I am getting pretty fatigued with doing 30 every day….and I wonder if I’m doing permanent damage by riding so much…but, I’ve said that before and yet here I am…dragging myself out in 4 minutes to start it again….more later…

Well…damn, my shoulder hurts again this morning and it is getting annoying…it goes away after a few hours but until then the pain is keeping me from moving it much…I wonder if I can take a day off the bike here soon? I just feel so worn out and I think part of it is too much sun at the beach…so, I may not go out there today with the hearings on at one that everyone should be watching….I know my skin can use the rest…maybe I’ll go out after the hearings and sunscreen up so there is no more skin damage….I did get a little work done yesterday, filling in the hole that I think was a woodchuck den at one point and then seeding it with grass seed…the shade seed is already coming up in the patches I did in the front lawn replacing the moss I took out and it will be filled in a few days from now…and I still have 3 bags of topsoil to do other repairs on the lawn and I hope to get to that in the next couple of days…it looks like the car is not leaking coolant anymore and I’m not sure why it was…checked it last night and everything is full and I haven’t seen anything under the car so I can breathe a little easier about that….not much to do today…need to get on the bike here in a few minutes to get the first ride in and the I need to make a run out to DD to get some packages of honey ham they have on sale for 1.88 for a pound and a third and I need to look at the ollies ad to see if there is anything I need from there since it is just across the street from DD…don’t know how much else I’ll do with feeling this worn out but I know it won’t be much….more later….

Well…after being out to the beach the past three days, finally, the first real beach day today with being able to swim twice for a half hour each time…the water was still a little cold but I was able to get used to it pretty fast so I hung out there for a couple of hours today instead of the hour or so from Monday and Tuesday…I had begun to think I was already getting tired of the beach but nope…it is harder than it looks to be retired…especially when I don’t work on the house to keep me busy…but today I was able to relax some and enjoy my time out there…and I got some color that is going to hurt later and that will mean some water retention from the sun damage but I can live with that…and I think I’ll try to get out there for the next two days to make it a full week…but the storms that are forecast for tonight might turn the lake over and make the water cold again but it might not…so that’s the plan for the rest of the week…I do have to hit DD for some honey ham that they have on sale for 1.88 for a 20oz package so I may stock the rest of the freezer and get a few of them….and with the brats I got today, I am going to have food that is bad for me for the rest of the week….oh, well…

Well…damn, have a huge, painful knot in my right shoulder this morning and that means I slept on it wrong and it’s going to take most of the day to work it out…slept okay last night and, even though the AC unit doesn’t get really cold, it got cold enough to drop the temp by 15 degrees and take the humidity out of my bedroom…so I guess I don’t need a new one this year…today could be an interesting one with the cold front that is coming through later today….we could get storms later this aft and they have a beach danger warning for high waves from 2 pm until tonight so I may have to be out there for that since I’m going to the beach anyway for the third day in a row…I do need to get some more grass seed planted today before the rain and will need to get some more bags of topsoil at Menards this morning….didn’t get a lot done yesterday but mow the lawn and today will just be the grass seed and maybe using all of the leftover feed for the lawn to take advantage of the rain….we’ll see….they did finally come out and pick up my bags of yard waste yesterday but I did have to call the trash department to get that done and I wonder when the city will ever start working as it should so I don’t have to call them all the time for services that should just happen without my intervention? Hmmmm…not much to do today….I do need to do the grocery runs this morning along with Menards but first I need to get on the bike right now and get the first ride in before I head out for groceries….and I need to do the yard work but I’m not sure if that will happen before or after I hit the beach….tough day ahead….more later….

Well…as you know, I usually like hot weather and I seem to move better in it…but today, yow! It’s hot and humid out here and I am melting from just going outside for a few minutes to water the grass patches and the garden….but, I’m back inside now with a fan blowing on me and I may need to turn it up to high here in a minute to speed up the cooling process…I did have a little good news today when the garage door opener worked all day and the car didn’t leak after the run out to the beach so I’m not sure what is going on with either of them….and this heat wave is supposed to last another day but we may get storms tomorrow night and that would be cool to see…and then the temps go back down to manageable starting thurs…I did just fire up the AC unit with the bedroom door closed to see if it will cope with 91 degrees…don’t think it will but I thought I’d give it a try….so, it looks like another night of tossing and turning in the heat and very little sleep…oh, well….I guess I can put the fan on me instead….

Well…yeah, still looking for a topic on politics this aft but I thought I’d talk about something weird I saw out at the beach…after getting in for a short swim, I laid down on my beach chair with my earbuds in to do my 6 SD songs of sun exposure on my back and at the end of it, I lifted my head to look around and the entire beach was enveloped in fog that was blowing in from the SW…now, I’ve never seen fog in the middle of the day when it’s 90 degrees before and it really was weird to have sheets of it blowing across the beach getting denser and less dense as the cloud did…pretty damn cool thing to see…okay, I just got an alert on the lower banner of my laptop screen that is for “polluted air”….have never seen that before, either…a day full of weirdness…now to the news for topics…

Well…running a little late today with not sleeping well and my allergies in full destroy mode…and I am so tired of that…of not being able to breathe and the damn low level headache I’ve had for months now….one good thing is that they have my street blocked off to repair the ugly patch they put in last fall so no damn boom boom boom going down it…and I asked the guys working on it if they could just forget about fixing it for a couple of months to give us some peace and quiet up here….but that means I’ll have to drag my yard waste bags out to 7th street to get them picked up today and I think I may even call to make sure they come after not doing a pickup for three weeks….I did get a little sun at the beach and I may go out there again today but the water is still pretty damn cold and my swim was an in and out, one dive thing….I do have to mow the lawn today or tomorrow and it is going to be hot…over 90 out here and the humidity is going to be nuts with the rain yesterday…my AC unit is not going to keep up with the heat this year so I may have to buy a new one since it costs more to fix it than buying one….and if I get a little bit larger one, I can cool the living room, too when it gets bad….but that is another 200 bucks that I don’t want to spend….not much to do today…just the rides and mowing the lawn…and maybe the beach again but that will be it…I do need to find a doctor this week and that will be the plan for later today if my depression will just let up a bit…it was bad enough last night that I thought about selling this place and just saying the hell with it…I’m tired of everything and life seems to be too much work….more later….